Dreams come to an end

A dream, so beautiful and it was about Steven gerrard... and even in my dream it's like there in a parental control cause i can never get close to some good guy it's always from far awy. Anyway i was dreaming about him, his charming face, breath taking smile and gentle manner...
And then i woke up and opened my eyes. Instead of seeing Gerrard i see a face only few meters away from mine. It's opposite of Gerrard's darling face and when i look at it more clearly i'm about to have a heart attack. A face sweating,, sleeping but eyes half open, and drooling the pillow wet.
And she is my little sister, my mom's favoutire perfect helpful member in the family. And i have to share a room with her.
She's 8 and half years younger then me and she has ruined everything. Me perfect morning and my good life.
She is very helpful and active and i'm lazy. Very lazy. so when my younger sister is doing everything it makes me look more lazy. I was mom's everything untill she came and took my place!! I can't even do anything to her because she's perfect. And she's always trying to please me. that's even more annoying. To see someone you don't like trying to impress you.
I know people are going to say "Aww that rude, she's your little sister and she's good and your so mean..." But i couldn't care less. I hate her. And i always will. But that doesn't mean i don't care about her. When she's in trouble i'lll be there for her always. Because she's family and my responsibility as i'm the eldest in the family. But i don't think i'll ever be able to love her.