some thoughts

threads of memories in my mind, like the echoes of a long forgotten dream, the bridge across forever, they fall to the floor, enveloped in a coccoon of pain, shimmering in the moonlight like drops from a million rainbows. each drop that falls takes away a piece of me yet leaves me feeling elated. i watch you walk away from me, a step at a time, i want to call out to you, say 'don't go' but the scream dies in my throat, soon you'll be gone forever, a mere distant thought i can't quite grasp...yeah, he was someone i used to know, what was his name again? a provider, a friend, a parent...they're just words now, the embrace that would negate the need to talk and make everything okay, the stern look that would throw all the carefully concocted stories out the window and somehow make the truth come tumbling out, that secret smile that ensured i could get away with murder coz i was daddy's girl, they no longer mean anything. time does not heal all wounds, it benumbs, completely and without prejudice.
i'm engulfed in a sea of emotions threatening to swallow me whole, i hang on to precious memories, mere driftwood in the vast expanse of the sea, a voice whispers 'let go and i shall take care of you' i let go and drown, completely at peace.
but i know this is not goodbye, the difference between you and me is the filthy whore known as 'time'.

just a little something i wrote after my dad passed away, Dec 30th 1999, just this side of the millinium