Im only human yet /with exceptions

Im only human,and well saving a long explanation,back in the mid 1990s my parents were
forced to move in with there parent from there trailer home rental/ my unattentional actions
I'd admit, I taught them a lesson for once in my life. my parents are alot of things and
some peers finally caught on to the fact. so the circumstances of, forced them to be uncovered
something my mother is famous for and her clown trying to look inocent.
sadly my family is very very dsyfuctional (stupid) yet as time went on manuputaltive and
controling to mental abuse/cruelty and one would realize the ending results such as I had
lived severe depressoin/sleep deprivation and a learning disability that made life very ad-
normal at atempts to gain control and in the end I had little respect for life in general as
I comitted a crime for money (my only crime of a serious nature against someone else)and it
only made me problematic as I didnt realize ignorance can come from the most sacret of people
ones own family I personally dont have a guilty conscious of that long ago era as I lived and
learned my life was set for a problematic destruction odds were against it as I realized long
before I done anything wrong something was seriously wrong and self help I tryed for a decade
reading the news papers the local-national news (tv) and talk shows and radio. I didnt realize
I suffered from severe depressoin at times and the factors of stress limiting my ability to realize
or why some of my relitives were playing with mental abuse to the point of mental
cruelity and effecting my self esteen to the point of paranoia my mother knew I was wanting alot
of answers in life as she would act as she was talking to someone on her phone directing her
words to catch my interests /insight and guidance were too late by then as was the other meaingful word , of trust
and friendship building.
yes I tryed self help and I unknowingly kept myself preoccuipied in
the time being hoping to findout, my obbessoins outdoor life fishing/ hunting /camping and work
kept me busy.and I lived on daydreams hoping normal a life would just happen it really motvated me at
times as in my youth.
Im real,I have a pulse but...........
( next the disgrace of our systems/ professoinals)