little lost sole
today would have been my son's birthday, but he died 7 week oldI cant put into words just how much Im missing him.
he was so tiny, and delicate. I didnt even get chance to hold him.
he was born 3 month prem, on 3,1,2005 and spent a full month on steroide's to speed up his growth.
my heart bleeds in agony...
with in 6-7 month me and his mum parted company I couldnt face her, she died inside to and started to sleep around and take drugs.
that was to much to try understand even tho I loved her so much.
Ive been single since.
and the problem is I need some arm's right at this moment. but my life is barren and bare so cold lonly and isolated.
and I have to cope alone, my Ex dont she shacked up with a younger guy.
so she's fine !
but what about Me, I seem to have become invisible.
where is the love ... what is compassion, is there such thing as empathy.
Im real, Im hurting, and so very missunderstood.
if I could describe myself at the moment with a song It would be theives in the temple, by prince
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We all need those arms around us at times. If you'll accept these, you can borrow them......
(But I won't kiss you)
I could just feel the pain, because I cried bitter tears when my friend's baby was still born at 9 months. I could tear one apart. What is truly sad, is that you and she had to part. I wonder, if you really gave her the shoulder she needed to cry on n get over?
My friend's husband was basically with her 24 hours, talking to her although it appeared to be talking to a wall. She was almost closed up, wouldn't talk to anyone, wouldn't answer calls. It was almost a period of hibernation.
But gradually, with time, pain was familiar, she began to unwind and found strength from the people around her.
It is sad, you ended up being all alone. I sure hope there would be a soul to comfort you in that part of the world.
Have faith in yourself dear, and hope for better times to come
Blessings and prayers
i totally understand and maybe my own experiences may help you even a tiny bit.
We are all dealt certain lessons to get through this life - really don´t know why i picked these ones - the most tragic of all! But I have had the strength to move on!... and I thank my sons for that!... I still have my life to live & hopefully one day find someone to give me a ´hug`for the rest of my life!!
I had Purple Rain by Prince played at my sons funeral !
Love&Hugs!.... Cassym
Most couples who lose a child never get over it and it effects the marriage (relationship)
The relationship has to be strong in order to survive it, sadly most don't.
The timing wasn't right for the babies soul to stay, who know he or she may come back at another time when it is right.
I am sorry again for your loss