Experience/Truth Paradox

There is Truth and there is "experience". "Experience" is a paradox. For experience to happen, there must be a separate self to do the experiencING. But there is no separate self. That thing is but specter. Truth is about direct experience of the INability to have direct experience through concepts and/or sensory apparatus. That is to say, Truth defies descriptors. It is fluid. It shifts "shape" but never essence.

Life is about having experiences. It is an attempt to be separate from other beings and from things in order to have sensory experiences of "them" as "not I". We have an experience of relative powerlessness in this world. THAT is the nature of THIS consensual dream. But experiences are not Truth. They are not REAL because they do not last: They are not Eternal. Only what is Eternal is True. Only Truth is True across all contexts.

A metaphor may help: A cut crystal Chalice/Grail of unsurpassed beauty appears to be shattered. Within each shard is contained the whole of the visage of the Grail and that visage may only be seen as the Light passes through each. (This dream is a hologram.) The shards think themselves separate but the Grail looks upon them and Knows each one. Then too the Grail knows its Self is NOT the Grail. Its Self is the Light that allows the visage of the Grail to be seen: the Light that makes it shine. The Grail Self Straddles the realms.

I have had "gnostic experiences" wherein a sense of self was at once scintered together by the concepts/understandings (in order to receive them) and then also shattered by those understandings received. It was instantaneous death/rebirth: an oscillation between the realms we must learn to straddle before we can summon and wield The Will. To KNOW the Will, separate "self" must be shattered. It is gradually replaced by all-embracing Self. Surrender, paradoxically, gives access to The Will.

It cannot be done justice in words. Words are symbols for concepts and thus, they are twice removed already from Truth/Reality. Would that I could give Understanding/KNOWing to everyone. What is required is a single minded desire to be ONE with Truth through the Daemon which is the Highest Self--the Truth Body still rooted in Oneness and yet straddling the realms. This unification of the Eidolon with The Daemon is known as "The Great Work". The only thing a "self" can do is desire single-mindedly that pearl of great price: be willing/ardent to cast away all that you have *thought* your self to be that it may be remade/replaced with the True Self/Daemon--and make the invocation. Do it whenever it comes to mind: invite being taken apart and "remade". Eventually, ardor will rise and the remainder comes without impetus from the you you have only thought your self to be.

Loving regards, as ever,

Cailín Joyce Callaghan
"Little girl Lord of Strife/Separation"
Queen of Cups
"Whom doth The Grail serve."

"Love is The Law. Love under Will. Let The Great Work begin."