I just want to be happy again.

And that's where it gets you.
Overthinking and feeling a touch miserable about it.
It's the searching, because once you take a moment and realize you haven't found something, you think and think and think, and feel absolutely miserable about the fact you've not found that something.
I wish I had some magick cure. But I'm much in the same boat at the moment.
Hope the feeling passes and you can stop thinking so hard on something that only makes you sad.
But here's the kicker.
You can't stop trying either. Stopping will only exasperate the problem.

Patience really pays of so don't rush into giving up the search. You have to kiss alot of frogs to find your princess lol so don't worry the time will come when you'll meet a girl that will be just the right one but if you rush then she may pass you by and you will never know it. Just relax meet people and enjoy life you're very young to worry about not finding love.

Everyone is lonely deep in their hearts, no matter how many people surround you.
As i grow up, my heart is not as happy as before. I find that I am lossing something, something that makes me laugh from the heart.
But now I am a little happy to find that there are some people who can feel the feeling I have felt.

ha ha, how1e!!
Your comment is interesting.
do you know that, if somebody reaches a highest place, he or she will feel so lonely?
In Chinese, there is a saying, which means that:
it is lonely at the top (or He sits no sure that sits too high)
yes, it is lonely at the top because no one can understand you, no can share your happiness, even no one can defeat you.

No, janmei is just part of the pinyin~~~no meanings. and i have added some changes to it. i don't have an english name~~ english name is very unknown to me. and english name doesn't seem to have its meanings.
well i think most of us get lost~~ if somebody is born in a rich family, he or she may be spoilt.
i was born in an unrich family. but i don't think i am good enough. what i know is that life is harsh.

Oh ok, I wondered because I know that most Chinese names have some meaning.
Sure life can be harsh, i have been to China a few times (Chinese g/f) and stayed with a Chinese family in Henan Province. I have also seen some very spoilt children of rich Chinese parents in London who have everything they want !! Whoever you are, there are always some better of and some worse off than you are. But at least the Chinese family culture is rich in many ways, even if not in money.