my confession

"What do you feel when the one you love is breaking up with you?He left you without thinking he can do that?The one who promised will face the battle with is fighting for someone now.But,you still love him no matter what he breaks your heart.You still want him back into your arms,hug him as if not letting go.But now he left you but alone.Crying in one corner of your room.Telling to yourself that you've' done your part and everything and asking yourself "am i not good enough?". and now it's the time to moved on,it's not easy to do but sometimes you have to.In a shot of tequila and a pack of cigarette.You realized you just waste your time,realizing that no matter what you do he didn't care at all.To love somebody is so risky and very tiring,it's definetely time to move on when you he don't care or appreciated or accepted. I dont wanna be bitter and full of hatred for what i have done before and thinking the reality that he is not coming back anymore to me but deep inside in my heart im hoping that he beg me and asking him to love him again."
"And now,whenever i see romantic movies,see people kiss or listen to a love song ,i feel good coz love still works,even if not for me at least for others."

Comments (3)

calmheartseeks●Somewhere, California USA

Oct 8, 2009●6 Blogs●1,531 Comments

I don't know if you are just writing this to express your thoughts or you really did just get your heart broken, but cheer up - you are too young and beautiful to be this sad. It is probable that he did care but you grew apart for some reason, or he had issues that make the relationship unworkable.

When people are young they make a lot of mistakes in relationships - it's a necessary part of learning how to love and be loved - not an easy thing. Sometimes people are scared of this type of committment so deliberately do things to distance the other person. They may care but still fall in love with someone else, they may just be immature and not ready for what you need from them.

It doesn't mean they never loved you, or even that they won't come back. My boyfriend came back to me twenty years later, lol. It didn't work out for us but it does for some.

You only waste your time when you know its not going to last and you keep hanging on - as you wrote. You always learn from loving so don't be bitter or hate. People are human with feet of clay and we hurt each other, even when we don't mean to. Try to forgive and do what you're doing...being open to others and daring to care again, maybe this time using what you've learned for an even better relationship.

By the way, I wish you luck with your journalism/writing. It's a great field because you are always discovering new things about the world.