Thinking

Once in awhile we connect with someone, in this moment we give a little of our hearts away. A piece maybe as little as the top of my pinky. Each time you talk you give a little more, even stronger feelings come to surface. Which way do I go you ask yourself in a low voice so no one will hear you. Do I run away, or stay to see what happens. Then something deep inside of you begins moving around, feelings of uneasiness makes you what to get sick comes over you. When things become just to much to handle, you pack up your heart and hit the rode. You have done this many times you can’t even count them on your fingers, you don’t have that many fingers.!!!!!! Then you settle down once more alone, thinking why did I do that. Then you answer yourself saying it was better for you to hurt early on, you know something is going to happen that will make you hurt anyways . Why not now,… My answer….. Run away from it all live a life alone, its easier then getting into a relationship you know won’t work….. I have loved many times and I will love many times more….. But must I run away from the pain, or do I stand and take it like I should to learn the lessons in this life.

My question and the answer is within myself……. I loved him very much…. But it just won’t work…..


Mary