Trust

I made the mistake of getting into something that wasn't good. I knew it wasn't good in the begining. I am so stupid that I could kick myself in the butt a few hundred times maybe that would wake my brain up.
I did learn something this time it took a few pains of the heart to actually learn a lesson I guess I needed to learn.
I started talking to a man who was married I got caught up in the words he used. I did meet him and he was very nice. But something inside told me not to go there so I didn't. I still talked to him on emails promised him I wouldn't leave his side for anything. Bad promise I finally did what I should have done from the start and told him that I didn't have any trust in him. 0 is what I put in that email. Told him that I couldn't talk to him anymore tell he got a divorce and get rid of the other women he was talking to.
Now I am sure that I couldn't trust him,because I set up another account in another name and put him in my favorites over on the other site. Wrong or not I did what I needed to do for myself. To see if this man was telling me the truth. He wasn't So I ended the online friendship with that in mind. I cryed because I always cry when losing someone in my life. I am emotional inside and out. Can't help it I trust everyone and always get hurt. My heart hurts right now bad but I do know I did what was the best before it went any father down the line. I am grateful that God gave me this lesson a few times. Now I can move on look for someone that is right for me and not looking for someone else to build their egos up.
Not every man is this way only a few. But I tend to trust the bad and ugly before I trust the good and sweet. Remember something in your life if you don't remember nothing else. Love is for two people who share the same things inside the heart. When you are looking look with your heart and head and listen to your head first......your heart always loves...and doesn't have eyes.. and common sence. love you all

Mary