There's no fool like an old fool (87)
jlb684: You quoted Markizamkd25, but you said "you're a long time dead." I'm not sure if you meant your comment for her or for me, but I'll answer your question, anyway...
Was I afraid to be happy? Not in the least. I was afraid of plummeting and not being able to climb back up again.
Was I afraid to be happy? Not in the least. I was afraid of plummeting and not being able to climb back up again.
how do u know it wudnt have worked
love is a risk and u didnt take it
why be miserable now when there is no need to be
if things were not to be cross that bridge when u come to it
what if he is feeling the same as u
wud it not be better to be happy together than be miserable apart
i hope u see above ur sorrow n maybe try again
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jlb684: He was just too young for me. Yet I fell for him and found myself becoming more and more crazy about him. Love??? How the hell do I know. I only know that I adored him.
So I ended it.
Damn, it hurts like hell.
It was probably the smart thing to do, but emotionally I am a wreck right now.
Only myself to blame.
So I ended it.
Damn, it hurts like hell.
It was probably the smart thing to do, but emotionally I am a wreck right now.
Only myself to blame.
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jlb684: Thanks to you and to all.
Yes, I do feel like a fool, but I also feel like the woman that I am, with the ability to love and give my all to a man...to the right man. I feel like a fool because I should never have let myself get involved with him because it had a built-in expiration date. It's just that I chose when that date came. Had I continued, I would have led myself to a bigger and harder fall. As it is right now, tears and some hyperventilating are all I have to contend with. Down the road a bit, I could have gone a lot deeper in the tunnel of "woe is me" and that scared me. I went through a period of depression when I divorced almost 10 years ago, couldn't eat or sleep, lost 30 pounds in 6 weeks, etc. I didn't want to go down that path again. When I love, I love hard. And when I fall, I fall hard. It seems that, these days, I just try to maintain my balance and not let myself fall.
Yes, I do feel like a fool, but I also feel like the woman that I am, with the ability to love and give my all to a man...to the right man. I feel like a fool because I should never have let myself get involved with him because it had a built-in expiration date. It's just that I chose when that date came. Had I continued, I would have led myself to a bigger and harder fall. As it is right now, tears and some hyperventilating are all I have to contend with. Down the road a bit, I could have gone a lot deeper in the tunnel of "woe is me" and that scared me. I went through a period of depression when I divorced almost 10 years ago, couldn't eat or sleep, lost 30 pounds in 6 weeks, etc. I didn't want to go down that path again. When I love, I love hard. And when I fall, I fall hard. It seems that, these days, I just try to maintain my balance and not let myself fall.
Hi Jlb I also Love Very Deeply, and have been this fallen Child Myself, seems over and over, But Still not Tend to find what we Need. Tho I alos fell, Maybe it wasnt my time, Maybe next week, or next month, we dont know... But The main thing is you Realised it wasnt It! BEFORE something more serious, like Quick Marriage, I did that once too, and OOPS..... I married after 6 months, and it didnt work out, it was More Lust I suppose, Tho this was yrs ago, and yours Dear, Come on and Have a Hug!!!!
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tennesseejudy: I think we have all felt that awful pain at sometime, and time becomes your best friend.
So True Judy, How are you this Evening?
Doing Well here,Yes at our age all arroud 50, we have had a few experiences, and we all want this Great Love, But so many people are so untrue, and poluted, that it is nearly Impossible to Find Our TRUE Match..... so we give in a Settle just 4 a while, just to Recharge our Batterys
And then , there we go again~~~ .... This is what I am trying to prevent This time arround
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HotrodLarrys: So True Judy, How are you this Evening? Doing Well here,
Yes at our age all arroud 50, we have had a few experiences, and we all want this Great Love, But so many people are so untrue, and poluted, that it is nearly Impossible to Find Our TRUE Match..... so we give in a Settle just 4 a while, just to Recharge our Batterys And then , there we go again~~~ .... This is what I am trying to prevent This time arround
Yes at our age all arroud 50, we have had a few experiences, and we all want this Great Love, But so many people are so untrue, and poluted, that it is nearly Impossible to Find Our TRUE Match..... so we give in a Settle just 4 a while, just to Recharge our Batterys And then , there we go again~~~ .... This is what I am trying to prevent This time arround
No more settling Larry...The bar is set, methinks too high at this point in life...
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jlb684: You quoted Markizamkd25, but you said "you're a long time dead." I'm not sure if you meant your comment for her or for me, but I'll answer your question, anyway...
Was I afraid to be happy? Not in the least. I was afraid of plummeting and not being able to climb back up again.
You are grazy if you do not go back after him.....Was I afraid to be happy? Not in the least. I was afraid of plummeting and not being able to climb back up again.
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jlb684: He was just too young for me. Yet I fell for him and found myself becoming more and more crazy about him. Love??? How the hell do I know. I only know that I adored him.
So I ended it.
Damn, it hurts like hell.
It was probably the smart thing to do, but emotionally I am a wreck right now.
Only myself to blame.
So I ended it.
Damn, it hurts like hell.
It was probably the smart thing to do, but emotionally I am a wreck right now.
Only myself to blame.
I can only offer comfort & wish you well, but while no poet, penned the following for you:
There is no blame, only choices
There is no blame, only life
There is no blame, though regrets remain
So right for you, your choice is so
What remains must be hope
For without that there is no point
So do not dishearten, you are no fool
For we all know that this is true
This hurting time will pass quick
But if not, we are here for you
To listen and comfort you
For your friends are ever true
So wipe away those sad tears
Make these blue sorrows disappear
For the sun shall rise tomorrow
Bringing sunlight to both your life and ours
S.L.
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Hey girl
sorry that you're feeling like this...but didnt we have a thread a while back questioning what you were doing?
And wasn't the consensus on that just enjoy it for as long as possible?
So if it was still going well, why pull the plug..jeez you could get run over by a bus 2moro!
sorry that you're feeling like this...but didnt we have a thread a while back questioning what you were doing?
And wasn't the consensus on that just enjoy it for as long as possible?
So if it was still going well, why pull the plug..jeez you could get run over by a bus 2moro!
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tennesseejudy: No more settling Larry...The bar is set, methinks too high at this point in life...
Yes we have it set on High standards, and stand on it! And we will win in time, and hope its not Forever..... The Biggie I think is Meeting, and then you know, and Feel Chemestry, Or Not, and then learn more, but writing back and forth can work but someone has to be willing to "Move" at Long Distant Relationships.... But Some just Click and Phisical Attraction is a Must as well..... As That is Part of the Spark!
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I've read the responses that came in while I was sleeping....or, attempting to sleep.
Some wonder why I ended it when it was going so well...others understand completely. Ending it now has made me miserable...I ate nothing all day yesterday and have no appetite for anything yet today; I cried on and off for hours and every time I awoke during the night. Had I continued to see him, I would go through this eventually (there is no doubt, for the age difference and life circumstances are really too much to overcome), but I believe it would have been even worse than it is now. I saw two options: Hurt now or hurt later. I chose to take it now and to hopefully start the healing process soon. Not everyone will understand this, but this was what I felt I needed to do. It doesn't make it less painful in the least; it just gets it over with sooner than it was destined to be.
As for him, he was a bit surprised, but he gets it, too. He felt much like I did...it was such a shame that we were not closer in age. And to those who say age is not important, I would have to disagree a bit. Two people can love each other with years between them, but I had to ask myself if there was potential for a future, and I knew inside that there was not. He knew as well. It's that simple, and yet that complicated and painful.
Writing this to all of you is a bit of a catharsis for me. I don't mean to ramble on and bore you, nor am I seeking sympathy. Writing is my passion and it is my way of releasing my burdens and my feelings, when there is nobody nearby to release them to.
I hope you understand.
Some wonder why I ended it when it was going so well...others understand completely. Ending it now has made me miserable...I ate nothing all day yesterday and have no appetite for anything yet today; I cried on and off for hours and every time I awoke during the night. Had I continued to see him, I would go through this eventually (there is no doubt, for the age difference and life circumstances are really too much to overcome), but I believe it would have been even worse than it is now. I saw two options: Hurt now or hurt later. I chose to take it now and to hopefully start the healing process soon. Not everyone will understand this, but this was what I felt I needed to do. It doesn't make it less painful in the least; it just gets it over with sooner than it was destined to be.
As for him, he was a bit surprised, but he gets it, too. He felt much like I did...it was such a shame that we were not closer in age. And to those who say age is not important, I would have to disagree a bit. Two people can love each other with years between them, but I had to ask myself if there was potential for a future, and I knew inside that there was not. He knew as well. It's that simple, and yet that complicated and painful.
Writing this to all of you is a bit of a catharsis for me. I don't mean to ramble on and bore you, nor am I seeking sympathy. Writing is my passion and it is my way of releasing my burdens and my feelings, when there is nobody nearby to release them to.
I hope you understand.
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jlb684: I've read the responses that came in while I was sleeping....or, attempting to sleep.
Some wonder why I ended it when it was going so well...others understand completely. Ending it now has made me miserable...I ate nothing all day yesterday and have no appetite for anything yet today; I cried on and off for hours and every time I awoke during the night. Had I continued to see him, I would go through this eventually (there is no doubt, for the age difference and life circumstances are really too much to overcome), but I believe it would have been even worse than it is now. I saw two options: Hurt now or hurt later. I chose to take it now and to hopefully start the healing process soon. Not everyone will understand this, but this was what I felt I needed to do. It doesn't make it less painful in the least; it just gets it over with sooner than it was destined to be.
As for him, he was a bit surprised, but he gets it, too. He felt much like I did...it was such a shame that we were not closer in age. And to those who say age is not important, I would have to disagree a bit. Two people can love each other with years between them, but I had to ask myself if there was potential for a future, and I knew inside that there was not. He knew as well. It's that simple, and yet that complicated and painful.
Writing this to all of you is a bit of a catharsis for me. I don't mean to ramble on and bore you, nor am I seeking sympathy. Writing is my passion and it is my way of releasing my burdens and my feelings, when there is nobody nearby to release them to.
I hope you understand.
Some wonder why I ended it when it was going so well...others understand completely. Ending it now has made me miserable...I ate nothing all day yesterday and have no appetite for anything yet today; I cried on and off for hours and every time I awoke during the night. Had I continued to see him, I would go through this eventually (there is no doubt, for the age difference and life circumstances are really too much to overcome), but I believe it would have been even worse than it is now. I saw two options: Hurt now or hurt later. I chose to take it now and to hopefully start the healing process soon. Not everyone will understand this, but this was what I felt I needed to do. It doesn't make it less painful in the least; it just gets it over with sooner than it was destined to be.
As for him, he was a bit surprised, but he gets it, too. He felt much like I did...it was such a shame that we were not closer in age. And to those who say age is not important, I would have to disagree a bit. Two people can love each other with years between them, but I had to ask myself if there was potential for a future, and I knew inside that there was not. He knew as well. It's that simple, and yet that complicated and painful.
Writing this to all of you is a bit of a catharsis for me. I don't mean to ramble on and bore you, nor am I seeking sympathy. Writing is my passion and it is my way of releasing my burdens and my feelings, when there is nobody nearby to release them to.
I hope you understand.
I understand.
I feel for you; not sympathy but empathy.
Life goes on and the healing process is one that we know, in are advanced state of almost maturity, that works!
I am almost healed myself; each day gets better and better and sooner or later I'm going to be so freaking healed I'm gonna die from happiness!
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RobertC2: I understand.
I feel for you; not sympathy but empathy.
Life goes on and the healing process is one that we know, in are advanced state of almost maturity, that works!
I am almost healed myself; each day gets better and better and sooner or later I'm going to be so freaking healed I'm gonna die from happiness!
I feel for you; not sympathy but empathy.
Life goes on and the healing process is one that we know, in are advanced state of almost maturity, that works!
I am almost healed myself; each day gets better and better and sooner or later I'm going to be so freaking healed I'm gonna die from happiness!
Thanks, Robert.
Here's to becoming "freaking healed"!!!
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jlb684: Thanks, Robert.
Here's to becoming "freaking healed"!!!
Here's to becoming "freaking healed"!!!
Yay!
And don't listen to that solsticemoon person............ she just wants to grab any young man she can lay her hands on and do naughty things to him - such a shallow woman (but I secretly adore her!)
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jlb684: He was just too young for me. Yet I fell for him and found myself becoming more and more crazy about him. Love??? How the hell do I know. I only know that I adored him.
So I ended it.
Damn, it hurts like hell.
It was probably the smart thing to do, but emotionally I am a wreck right now.
Only myself to blame.
So I ended it.
Damn, it hurts like hell.
It was probably the smart thing to do, but emotionally I am a wreck right now.
Only myself to blame.
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RobertC2: Quit trying to cheer her up, dammit...... I have a cunning plan to zap her with my charming school of old fartiness!
yeh right..the last thing she needs is the robert school of charm
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solsticemoon: yeh right..the last thing she needs is the robert school of charm
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jlb684: Awwww, maybe I do indeed need a good slap.
Riding it out is not a good option for me. I would be riding and riding and riding and then, eventually, the horse would throw me off. I decided it was better to just stop the ride and get off as safely as possible now.
Martyr? Hmmmm...well, I understand why you said that, but it's not really the case. It's self-protection, not martyrdom. If I gave you all the details, all the information, about why this was destined to end eventually, I think you'd understand (or, maybe you would). But I'm not going to go into all of the details. Suffice it to say that I have no doubt in my mind that it would end one day. I just couldn't go deeper. I wasn't kidding when I earlier said that I am not afraid to be happy, but am afraid of plummeting and not being able to climb back up again. This man would have taken me to such a place and it scared me.
Hugs to you, too, Solstice.
Riding it out is not a good option for me. I would be riding and riding and riding and then, eventually, the horse would throw me off. I decided it was better to just stop the ride and get off as safely as possible now.
Martyr? Hmmmm...well, I understand why you said that, but it's not really the case. It's self-protection, not martyrdom. If I gave you all the details, all the information, about why this was destined to end eventually, I think you'd understand (or, maybe you would). But I'm not going to go into all of the details. Suffice it to say that I have no doubt in my mind that it would end one day. I just couldn't go deeper. I wasn't kidding when I earlier said that I am not afraid to be happy, but am afraid of plummeting and not being able to climb back up again. This man would have taken me to such a place and it scared me.
Hugs to you, too, Solstice.
But everything ends one day darlin..whether it be thru conflict or even death...why lose happiness now for whay may be further down the years?..god love ya tho babe
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"I wasn't kidding when I earlier said that I am not afraid to be happy, but am afraid of plummeting and not being able to climb back up again. This man would have taken me to such a place and it scared me."
The thing about plummeting is whether or not you hit at the bottom or take control of your fall to swoop upwards into the sky where none can follow you.
You've taken control by your action and there may be some thunderstorms in the clouds you know the sun is going to shine on you.
The thing about plummeting is whether or not you hit at the bottom or take control of your fall to swoop upwards into the sky where none can follow you.
You've taken control by your action and there may be some thunderstorms in the clouds you know the sun is going to shine on you.
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jlb684: I've read the responses that came in while I was sleeping....or, attempting to sleep.
Some wonder why I ended it when it was going so well...others understand completely. Ending it now has made me miserable...I ate nothing all day yesterday and have no appetite for anything yet today; I cried on and off for hours and every time I awoke during the night. Had I continued to see him, I would go through this eventually (there is no doubt, for the age difference and life circumstances are really too much to overcome), but I believe it would have been even worse than it is now. I saw two options: Hurt now or hurt later. I chose to take it now and to hopefully start the healing process soon. Not everyone will understand this, but this was what I felt I needed to do. It doesn't make it less painful in the least; it just gets it over with sooner than it was destined to be.
As for him, he was a bit surprised, but he gets it, too. He felt much like I did...it was such a shame that we were not closer in age. And to those who say age is not important, I would have to disagree a bit. Two people can love each other with years between them, but I had to ask myself if there was potential for a future, and I knew inside that there was not. He knew as well. It's that simple, and yet that complicated and painful.
Writing this to all of you is a bit of a catharsis for me. I don't mean to ramble on and bore you, nor am I seeking sympathy. Writing is my passion and it is my way of releasing my burdens and my feelings, when there is nobody nearby to release them to.
I hope you understand.
Some wonder why I ended it when it was going so well...others understand completely. Ending it now has made me miserable...I ate nothing all day yesterday and have no appetite for anything yet today; I cried on and off for hours and every time I awoke during the night. Had I continued to see him, I would go through this eventually (there is no doubt, for the age difference and life circumstances are really too much to overcome), but I believe it would have been even worse than it is now. I saw two options: Hurt now or hurt later. I chose to take it now and to hopefully start the healing process soon. Not everyone will understand this, but this was what I felt I needed to do. It doesn't make it less painful in the least; it just gets it over with sooner than it was destined to be.
As for him, he was a bit surprised, but he gets it, too. He felt much like I did...it was such a shame that we were not closer in age. And to those who say age is not important, I would have to disagree a bit. Two people can love each other with years between them, but I had to ask myself if there was potential for a future, and I knew inside that there was not. He knew as well. It's that simple, and yet that complicated and painful.
Writing this to all of you is a bit of a catharsis for me. I don't mean to ramble on and bore you, nor am I seeking sympathy. Writing is my passion and it is my way of releasing my burdens and my feelings, when there is nobody nearby to release them to.
I hope you understand.
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