Just one moment in time. ( Archived) (15)

I'd just settle for the first time ...

I'd settle for the "first time" all over again. Sucked.

Everything can change in that moment.

There was a moment that I wrote about, years ago, when my beloved oldest daughter got out of the car, going to high school for the first time. She slung her backpack over her shoulder, glanced back at me, and looked so young, just so fragile....She had been home schooled, it was her first year of school ever...and I knew that all those days of us waking up and padding around the house together in the early mornings, our whispered secrets late at night, our walks and countless hours watching scary movies and her crazy cartoons she still loves to this day, were gone...the 8 hour a day part of her that I was priveleged to be part of shaping her life, were over, all in that moment, what I took for granted as "everyday" was done...for good. things would change, they already had in that moment. Years later we took her to college, again so tiny and frail, on the curb crying because she wanted to follow us back out to the car, I looked in my rearview mirror and realized another piece of her life was over in that one, solitary second...this year she is graduating, a woman, a lovely, intelligent, capable, confident woman- who is a criminal justice major, already working in the field, a mans field and holding her own. But in those two final moments I watched a lifetime pass and change even as I waved goodbye...God I miss those days of life.

Leanne, memories are real because they really happened. We can go to the memory bank anytime and make a withdrawal. Paws