Is there any part of your life that you felt that you haven't examined, yet. I was just wondering if anyone had any yets that they wanted to do if they ever became single or if there was anyone single who has had hopes, desires or goals. When I was four I wanted to be a hermit. I have accomplished that, lol.
When I was a kid, I wanted to be a kid when I grew up. I think I managed that. I don’t think there was ever a time in my life when I wasn't a kid.
Perhaps I missed out on being an adult?
The only area of my life that has gone unexamined, is the area of what it would be like to live with a loving partner. Unfortunately I can't just decide to examine that area on my own. That requires the participation of a second party and I have yet to find someone who wants to share that experience with me.
We really only have control over things that do not require the participation and consensus of another. Unfortuantely.
For me it would have to be travel, I would love to go all over the world and see many things. What I really hope to see some day is a whale, a great big whale swimming in the ocean.
I have found a difference in being childish and childlike. I have always been a big kid but in some ways had to mature which was against my nature. I had no choice. I have been examining the differences.
I feel we can examine ourselves to death sometimes...
And, there will always be more to explore.
I'd love to investigate some places... Want to continue photo matrixing, and evps I had to give up before... I will, just only so much at one time, lol.
I wanted to be an archeologist as a child...but, I dreamed of pregnancy.. wtf? maybe I was meant to do what I ahve, and changed the course of history layed by my past families...
A negative thing has given you a positive outlook. I think that is great that you have a determination to keep trying. I like the words of Star Quest. Never give up. Never surrender. Sometimes it takes an internal effort to see beyond the reality of what can seem like a hopeless situation. You are an inspiration, Mike.
My memory loss is more recent..as a side effect of the lupus... So, I have to keep going just to remember things. And, being aquarius doesn't help in that department, yet is excellent for curiousity, and needing to know...lol
I think that is why they say girls mature faster than boys is because girls have no choice but have to mature. Boys have the option to stay childish. I know my older sister had act like a mother when my dad was divorced. Dad and me would work in the log woods while my sister cleaned the house and made meals. Not having a choice can limit one's freedom but mature one. Just a thought.
The can is always open, lol. I don't close it. It's part of who I am... One of the many examinations of myself I've done. Allowing myself to just be me, while wearing my past and owning all of me.
I have had to accept my past. Some of it I am not proud of but that is just as much a part of me as my present is. It makes me think of Mother Mantelle. She is this pregnant lesbian priest wrote about in 1983. I think it gives a whole new meaning to the word Mother that is used by nuns.
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