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Tomorrow is not only Valentine's Day, but my deceased wife's birthday, our anniversary and the due date of our child she was carrying. LOL I dont guess I have ever figured out when I do something not to go all the way, huh? Well, it hasnt really bothered me much the past few years and I dont really know why it is hitting me so hard this year. Maybe it is that in July I turn 40 and I have been also facing this year that I am giving up on having a family of my own. It isnt that I couldnt have one or dont want to spend my life with someone, but to be fair to a child, it is just something I have to give up.
Lionhearted asked in a post if there was such a thing as good pain,,, It was in refernce to something I had said. Yes, there is such a thing as good pain. I have spent today in the bed reliving every good moment my wife and I shared and, while some of it is excruciating, I would not trade a second of the bad to lose the good that came with her. Would i even be remembering all of these little details today if she had not died? God, it has been 6 and a half years and even though I have gone on with life, how can a memory make you hurt so bad you have to force your next breath?!