Return To Innocence
Years have gone by
With you packed away in that old musty box
With the rest of my forgotten joys and pains
These years have been kind to you
You've grown to pop the top
And return once more to remind me
I fear you
I tried to conquer you in the only way I knew how
I forgot you existed
Instead of living through the pain you've given me
Accepting it
And breaking through to the other side

You've become an entity unto yourself
I can not ask you how I can defeat you
I don't know if I can try
I hide in my oubliette
Forgetting you
Forgetting even me
Letting fear take control

I may leave cautiously
Search for comfort
To cry a thousand tears from my eyes
In the arms of someone who loves me
Just to be held
No words spoken
To feel a heart beat with mine
That races
To breath again

Sunlight bask upon my skin
Let me battle
Conquer
Maim
Destroy

This fear that eats away at me
Keeping me from myself

Let me shine..
Return to innocence...

Dedicated to fellow rape victims.