Its been a while for me
The thought of doing it frightens me
I can't remember my first time
But I could not have been more terrified
I am so afraid of doing it
Nineteen years is a long time ago
God my self esteem is low
And fear makes mind numb
Someone, anyone turn off the lights
So no one can see embarass myself
Or hear me make a fool of me
PLEASE........PLEASE.....
Oh God it is too late
He is here ready to begin
Will he see how I tremble
Will he be gentle....
Will he consider me at all
Will he.......Will he.....
My mind is blank thats not good
How will I learn in this classroom
After nineteen years with no study
It is not so bad after all
My mind is obsorbing every word he speaks.