if only

by charliejaparteeAuckland, New Zealand

Oct 2012 523 Views 7 comments

if only

if only you'd stop apologizing to me
telling me how naive how gullible you were then
if only i'd beaten you like you wished i would
instead of trying to talk it through
to convince you
if only you'd apologized to my face
five
four
three
two
one
year ago
i might be able to put it behind me
to forgive you
yea sure i'd have a criminal record
sure my kids would hate me
it couldn't be worse than now
could it?
if only i was a @#$%

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Posted: Oct 2012

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if only i threw my phone away

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Comments (7)

Ladybee42East Liverpool, Ohio USAOct 15, 2012

Sounds like you can draw from a painful past experience - a gritty poem charlie.

charliejaparteeOPAuckland, New ZealandOct 15, 2012

sand in my teeth ladybee sand in my teeth

adjhematteson, Illinois USAOct 15, 2012

Charliejapartee Nice write from your heart to our souls here. It is so hard when things like this happen. I am so sorry for the bad relationship situations you were in. I hope now life is better for thee. Thanks for sharing.

LadyMorgana60Norwich, Norfolk, England UKOct 16, 2012

Packed with powerful emotion Charlie..

Thanks for sharing

charliejaparteeOPAuckland, New ZealandOct 16, 2012

THANKS 4 NOT JUDGING GUYS

Odette67Penrith, Cumbria, England UKOct 16, 2012

i might be able to put it behind me
to forgive you
yea sure i'd have a criminal record
sure my kids would hate me
it couldn't be worse than now
could it?
if only i was a @#$%

Who are we to judge? Good poem as ever Charlie.