Today

I must have balled my eyes out
On my knees curled up what seemed to me
In the form of a fetus
Praying to the Almighty God
Amen Ra for forgiveness

Oh...did I call out His name loud!
Loud to myself so that I didn’t wake up my family
Damn shame that I...haven’t any shame in my............Game
To let -you - in-on- my- secrete
Watch this though
Many souls have the same secrete
But I’m the only knucklehead that’s unable to keep it...to myself

Today I cried out to God
To make me a better man
As well as a better servant
A better Baba (father) to my children
A better brother to my brother’s and sister’s of the earth!

Today I cried soooo hard til my soul could release
Release all the pain and all the hurt
I must have cried so much that I could see within
My clear teardrops that wouldn’t stop past ills and past dirt
So many tears I shed...tissue was no longer my friend
That’s when I reached out for an old beat up t-shirt

To wipe off my face and blow my nose
To get rid of all of that liquid
I cried so hard like a kid remembering
How he once had to go out and get a switch to whoop

His own butt with...yes... I ...did...call out to Him...(God)
To change my life and make me better.....faster....to get closer
To him..........stronger....cause I’m no longer able to do it by myself
I’m still a piece of work in progress and learning life lessons
Today...is...my... confession...
Today...I
Today I cried so hard....
Today