I CAN’T DENY
My ANGER
My PAIN
My DOUBT
My REGRET

It’s all locked inside my head

And it’s eating me alive
It’s devouring my pride

The happiness I felt
Only yesterday
Today I forget

How is it possible to feel in an unpredictable way?

Why can’t I say what I need to say?
DAMN IT!

Instead

All I hear out of my own mouth
Is filled with the anger, the pain, and all of the doubt

My feelings mixed with such explosive energy

While the anger goads me to SHOUT, KICK or SCREAM

The pain makes me want to just numb out

But the doubt is tempting me to figure stuff out
And to even spell it all out

I’ve never in all my days
Been so horribly mixed up
Feeling what I can’t touch
Dealing out such tough love

Is all this agony really what love is made of?

©BellaNora

03/10/13