Staring at the knife on my floor, my only request is to rid myself of myself
All this time I've blamed the world for my imprisonment and tourture.
But no, I am aware that I alone have assembled these bars around me, and I myself am held accountable for the way of my body.
I live in a self made prison of hatred and darkness.
Love is all around, but as soon as it weasles its way through theses bars its mutated into pure pain.
Pain I can no longer endure.
For my heart is of the faintest of all my life.
I have searched for someone to burden and pawn my tears off on.
For I am from a broken home.
And what arises from a broken home, but a broken girl, with broken dreams, and a broken heart.
Creating the faintest of hearts.
Hello!
Anyone there?
Of course not.
Because men are cowardly.
Right?
Wrong!
It is my wrong doing.
I am no longer deserving.
So take me away and leave me blank in solitude,
For I deserve nothing.
So I say unto you.
I will save myself from myself,
For I hold full responsibility for my madness
Because I have doomed myself
With the faintest of hearts