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Mar 2014 386 Views 2 comments
4 THINGS THAT I KNEW
ALL I EVER KNEW WAS MAD, SAD, SCARED & ANGRY.
I WAS MAD CAUSE I ALWAY HAD TO PUT MY GUARDS UP & NOT LET ANYONE IN, DUE TO A PAST THAT WAS HEART BREAKING IT WAS DOOMED BEFORE IT BEGANED.
I WAS SAD DUE TO MY HEART BEING BROKEN BY SEVERAL WHO CLAIMED TO CARE FOR ME, INCLUDING EXTENDED FAMILY, A LIFELESS MARRIAGE, FULL OF PAIN THAT IS HARD TO DESCRIBE BY ME. NEW LOVERS THAT CLAIM TO HAVE MY BEST INTEREST BY FAR, SO NOW MY MEMORY STILL BARES THE SCARS.
IM STILL SCARED OF MY PAST,IM TRYING HARD TO FORGET, BUT WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES THE PAIN STILL EXIST. MY FUTURE IS THE SAME, I KEEP RUNNING INTO THE SAME PAIN, DIFFERENT FACE & NAMES BUT PLAYING THE VERY SAME GAME.IS THAT MY SCENERIO THATS DESTINED TO BE MY LIFE, KNOW WONDER WHY I BREAK DOWN & CRY. WONDERING IF THIS SCRIPT IS WHATS LAID OUT FOR MY LIFE.
IM SCARED FOR MY HEART ONLY KNOWS HOW TO LOVE & FORGIVE, BUT MY MIND NEVER LETS ME FORGET OR STOP ME FROM WONDERING IF & WHEN I GET HURT AGAIN BY THE NEXT LOVER OR FRIEND WHO CLAIMS TO BE HERE.
IM LONELY CAUSE OF ALL THESE THINGS, SOMETIMES I WONDER IF I CHASE A GENUINE LOVER OR FRIEND AWAY. DUE TO A GUARD OF IVISIBLE STEEL I DISPLAY. I WONDER IF REAL LOVE WILL EVER COME MY WAY. CAN I LOWER MY GUARD & LOVE THEM THE WAY MY HEART SAY.
FOR THESE ARE THE 4 THINGS I KNEW.
I WAS MAD CAUSE I ALWAY HAD TO PUT MY GUARDS UP & NOT LET ANYONE IN, DUE TO A PAST THAT WAS HEART BREAKING IT WAS DOOMED BEFORE IT BEGANED.
I WAS SAD DUE TO MY HEART BEING BROKEN BY SEVERAL WHO CLAIMED TO CARE FOR ME, INCLUDING EXTENDED FAMILY, A LIFELESS MARRIAGE, FULL OF PAIN THAT IS HARD TO DESCRIBE BY ME. NEW LOVERS THAT CLAIM TO HAVE MY BEST INTEREST BY FAR, SO NOW MY MEMORY STILL BARES THE SCARS.
IM STILL SCARED OF MY PAST,IM TRYING HARD TO FORGET, BUT WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES THE PAIN STILL EXIST. MY FUTURE IS THE SAME, I KEEP RUNNING INTO THE SAME PAIN, DIFFERENT FACE & NAMES BUT PLAYING THE VERY SAME GAME.IS THAT MY SCENERIO THATS DESTINED TO BE MY LIFE, KNOW WONDER WHY I BREAK DOWN & CRY. WONDERING IF THIS SCRIPT IS WHATS LAID OUT FOR MY LIFE.
IM SCARED FOR MY HEART ONLY KNOWS HOW TO LOVE & FORGIVE, BUT MY MIND NEVER LETS ME FORGET OR STOP ME FROM WONDERING IF & WHEN I GET HURT AGAIN BY THE NEXT LOVER OR FRIEND WHO CLAIMS TO BE HERE.
IM LONELY CAUSE OF ALL THESE THINGS, SOMETIMES I WONDER IF I CHASE A GENUINE LOVER OR FRIEND AWAY. DUE TO A GUARD OF IVISIBLE STEEL I DISPLAY. I WONDER IF REAL LOVE WILL EVER COME MY WAY. CAN I LOWER MY GUARD & LOVE THEM THE WAY MY HEART SAY.
FOR THESE ARE THE 4 THINGS I KNEW.
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Posted: Mar 2014
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Comments (2)
"Sweetie"..."Emotions cannot understand the logic of the mind"...and, the heart is ever yearning; I am not one to give advise, for my past is inundated with mistakes and regret,
but,
my dear,
I say this to you,
sincerely,
"Do not lose heart"!
For "Love will find you, if you are still".
Wonderful Write
Robert
Second, you poured on here so much pain and it is so deep. You just have to let go and I am good at saying this but I do know it isn't easy to do.
Anyways: I WONDER IF REAL LOVE WILL EVER COME MY WAY. CAN I LOWER MY GUARD & LOVE THEM THE WAY MY HEART SAY.
FOR THESE ARE THE 4 THINGS I KNEW.
The last lines are expressing a possibility of going to be answered very positively..
phyllis