lying back
in deep thought
twisted hurt inside
screwing with
the thoughts
in a toxic world

just popping
into a lunar
moon space
in my mind
floating around
sweetly smiling

i am
a passionate lover
yet i hide
myself away
from the world
laughing loving
so deeply
inside the heart

lost everything
i believed in
golden feelings shine
from the house
of treasures
straight into
the very heart
but i sill believe
in you love

as hate
it puts
the gun upon
the table
with fully
loaded chambers
safety off
finger upon
the trigger

my last poem
i am smiling
without love
i blow my
brains out
squeezing the trigger
slowly click
bang