I didn't think it was going to be like this
it been ten year's ago today
since my husband Jerry went away
so I write this poem
just for him

I didn't think it was going to be like this
I wake up and I think am I at home
but it not you but my mama
I hear talking on the phone
I think is this a dream
Jerry should be somewhere
around it seems

I didn't think it was going to be like this
it not my house as I sweep floors
it not my key that unlocks the house doors
again I think is this a dream
no Jerry gone what ever that means

I didn't think it would be like this
I sleep alone most ever night
Jerry not here to be the last
to turn out the lights
I am no longer called his wife

I didn't think it would be like this
I live now Ohio and not PA
I moved back to my dad and mom old home place
I drive his car and made new friends
but it all seem like a dream
in the end

I didn't think it would be like this
so this poem I write today
is to remember Jerry Newman in
a special way
I just wanted you to know babe
after your death ten years ago.

I didn't think it would be like this