O how the remorse builds up inside
I leapt the wrong way
Didn't have good to say
barely thought to pray
sinned from day to day
It smothers me into a blissful respinterrupted
by the searing anguish
the lashes of demons
the clawing of doubt
gnawing away at my existence
undermining my confidenceite

I am thoroughly trapped in the darkness
no loving Master to dig me out
He simply protects me from their attempts
to end my life
and my consciousness.

I feel every barb ripping out
my tendons are gnarled
my muscles are shredded
I have lost the ability to cry

Yet, magically
it somehow ceases
I think myself totally weightless
I float casually towards the light
perhaps some stranger has saved me from such a plight

Back onto the tightrope so long ago
the thunder booms
the lightning glares
and all I can do is cry

alone on a transfigured isle
no wretched life but mine for miles
the suns begins to unleash its horror
but I refuse to surrender

Through the waves I dive and swim
the current splits me out and in
yet soon I am adrift at sea
No way to go no no direction to see

Yet I shall swim forward
because what lies in wait for me
cannot be worse than what I have endured
on that accursed isle.

My arms and legs begin to convulse
Undefined becomes my pulse
Flail about and hope for the best
as the cold of the ocean collapses my chest

My eyes are slowly shutting
this death is much more cunning
Done in by my instinct to live
drew me out to my fall

the seas swell and crash back and forth
yet it's all so peaceful to me.
I welcome the water to become an eternal part of me
as I sink into the deep

No longer shall my accursed form
nor manner of sinning despoil no more
the purity that is left within this world
I take my life
so that you may live.