Every person place and thing I have seen
Has made a mark on my list of dreams
Some how I've managed to stay on my feet
Came to the point I had to retreat

Intox, I cant stay standing on my own
With sweaty palms and skins lost its tone
Only god could relate with how I felt
Never learning to live with what I'm dealt

I ask myself how I could be so low
To find out I have nothing left to blow
I grabbed my gun to end it all
pulled the trigger and the bullets fall

In shock that I was still alive
God made it possible for me to survive
Losing grasp of the lesson learned
turned my back with many wrong turns

This time I fell no help to call
Struggle to live and to God I crawl
That was the end of my life long binge
Thanks to God and my A.A friends