I suppose I could increase the heat by placing other candles around the "original" one - I don't see myself heating up the whole house just for drips - even if they are fun and colorful.
.....resentments and grudges toward "past" loved ones.....
In any case, you do make a good point and it's refreshing to see it. Often I say, ".....so on we go....." We can't be continually blaming. Although I'm finding forgiveness to be a multi-layered endeavor and in some cases taking years to work through. But it's my job to make myself healthy.
And, to be sure, I was not yelling at you. I saw a soapbox on the floor and I climbed up on it. I've since put it away - to possibly be used later.
But sometimes I have no strength left because it's been beaten out of me. or it leaked out slowly by an unattended hole in my self; and so I can't hold my head up high.......until I have rested, regrouped, reassessed and renewed. I understand the storms in life and I understand the times of rest and even the times of wallowing.
That brings to mind that song by Lee Anne Womack "I Hope You Dance" "......Lovin' may be a mistake but it's worth makin'" Well, the whole song, really. Don't not do what you want to do, in my opinion.
And on we go, deciding as we go what is good.... I love your outlook. I too remember reaching over to him and touching his chest, being so glad he was there and forgetting why it was that I had wished he weren't.
Well, Bajanblue, if you ever do decide to leave, send to me all of your writings. I want my children to read them, (writers in their own right).
I've been thinking all day about you're getting upset when someone e-mailed you about his incapacity to understand you. It IS a blog. You're 'spressin'. Ain't it? I have to reread what you write sometimes, but that's how I can begin to understand.
And I'll tell ya what, honey, I love the beauty that I see emminating (is that spelled correctly?) from your soul.
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I suppose I could increase the heat by placing other candles around the "original" one - I don't see myself heating up the whole house just for drips - even if they are fun and colorful.