Hey great to see you on here missed you hon and so glad you are still with your guy.Its so good to see one of the old crew back again, gee you sound happy and that is how it should be. Please dont be a stranger.
Well everybody those who are happy please leave right now. we do not like anyone to spread it around as it might become a habit, we only like in fighting and miseries on here, you are not allowed to give support or care about anyone as that means we might make friends. And THAT is a definate no no as we could no longer have those sarcastic remarks and mean little digs. Because without out that we might, just might, start to heal from our own hurt and that would never do would it.
Oh no lou please tell me its not from our forum.I would hate to think that any of our regulers are so consumed with jealousy and frustration that they would stoop to this level they must be pretty screwed up in the head to make comments like that. I am not really looking for anyone on CS I also just come online for the forums as a lot of us do. I for one am glad you are on here and dont you dare leave,and if it upsets anyone they can get off here right now!!! we dont need jerks like that on here.
What a great title Rules for being Human........I used to know a guy like that he was fun and sweet for a while then in a breathe he changed, he obviously did not take in what what was being quoted.A real Dr Jeckle and Mr Hyde personality. What you make of your life is up to you! without love we wither away and become mean and angry,we get pleasure in hurting other people, thats the only feeling we are now capable of.
If anyone gets too close tear there heart, out how dare they make you have feelings you thought you had forgotton about, must never be vunerable again. Do unto others before they do it to you.This is the sickening world we now live in and these dating sites spawn more and more of these lost souls every day.
Our old champ well, he was to us was Exarch....and our best girl was My Sienna she was a pet, only cost us $3,ooo yet won nearly $500,000 we retained a third of her.She tried till she dropped.She beat horses who cost over a million, Heady days.
Hi guys feeling better I dont drink so it was good to get it out. I am on antidepressants and they work ok by not allowing me to go over and over stuff that is why I have recovered somewhat and able to respond to your help, but every now and again it gets too much but there has to be a trigger until I learn how to take it on board.
My Doc told me there is up to 30% of population on anti-dep yet to talk about it seems a no no.Maybe if there was more talking about stuff it might improve. It really helped me last night the support I received from you all it really stopped me from falling in the black hole and that is no exaggeration, no dizziness this morning getting strong again as I write.
Well guys Thank you so much for your support you have no idea how much it means to me.
The trigger for me was that today I have been feeling so dizzy.I think it is from sheer stress .So I got a bit scared and started to worry.. as you do... what if I passed out ...died,what would happen to my three middle aged dogs Shane my Golden Retriever who fusses and worries about me and Oscar and Maybelle my two Clumber Spaniels I could lie here for a few days and they would be inside with me not knowing what to do or how to do it.
The reason all this has been brought on is that 10yrs ago My daughter was the best lady Jockey in Aus and my ex was the Trainer we had great success then she had a terrible accident and became disabled so everything changed.After that her ex went out every night and left her on her on her own he then smashed her little black Celica up and he was in a coma for about 9 weeks she was two months pregnant at that time and she never left his side, after that we nursed him back to health and when he recovered he left her at 7 months pregnant.When she gave birth to a little girl the day after he and his mother put in for full custody, that is when the real hell started.You have no idea.
We then moved to Victoria but things kept going downhill and because of the continuing stress my ex had a stroke and he changed completely.... he then decided to go back to the UK as he could not take it anymore leaving myself my daughter and granddaughter to get on as best we could. We had to sell all our broodmares, yearlings and racehorses bad times, broke my heart. But my daughter met a guy in WAGGA WAGGA and now is living with him and is engaged, my job is done.
This all got to me when I had to put down our old champ a wonderful Racehorse 26yrs he always seemed to win races when we really needed him to... buried him a fortnight ago.
Just found out a few days ago my ex has an inoperable brain tumour married for nearly 40yrs so of course still fond of him. Could not bear a grudge not his fault it was the stroke.
That is when the dizziness started, the years of being strong over and over again sort of caught up with me I suppose. I do know there are so many people so much worse off than me so feel guilty about having the poor me's, feeling so sorry for my self but have been through the black hole of hell so many times they should put a revolving door on there for me lol. I Will regroup, but do not drive and too far to walk to town no bus, my neighbour drops me off once a week to do the shopping. Also have not seen my only grandchild since before Christmas. I represent the past and I understand completely.
So hope this property does not take too long to sell.Sorry to bore you guys but at least you can skip this long boring explanation if you want, too long and rambling anyway but tried to put only the bare bones of what transpired. Had to put it on here as I am only a one finger typist and could not explain to you all who have been so great in supporting me.
It feels better now! I cannot put my problems onto anyone else as I know they have enough of there own.So my dear members you have copped it but with the proviso you can ignore if you wish. But I felt close enough to you all to explain.
Well guys I need help I am so down this heat is getting me so down no rain...its like everyone else is getting it and a big sign is saying do not rain on Benalla.
I am getting plenty of replies but when I meet someone I feel nothing.Just dead inside I cannot seem to relate no spark no nothing I think that I must come to terms with being on my own.I do not really know what is going on at the moment I am feeling so damn sorry for myself and find myself sleeping more my darling dogs cant even get me out of it,and its not fair on them.
I feel so alone most of you have known me for a while! I do not know what to do or where to turn cant seem to talk to anyone anymore that I know sorry guys.Been through a lot on this forum but cant seem to even really join in much now.
Dont know what to do anymore. Cannot be strong its just too hard.
Hi good advice from our members.I love your dog he is a very imposing fellow what breed is he ???? I have seen them before and if my memory is correct I think they are very protective of their family, quite independant and some what stubbon. I just cannot remember their name could you help me there.
Well I have never been clicky I am my own person and this forum is better than most, get a group of people together you will always get a few that like to herd together.As everyone knows I march to the beat of my own drum but have a strong protective instinct. And dont be so grumpy its over.
Hi Steve you Ok ???? great to see you back.How did the stay in hospital go? and did they get all of the tumour and were the Docs pleased with the outcome ????
I have heard many jokes very like this one.REMEMBER he applogised and he did not have to! if he offended anyone what else could he do, this is political correctness gone mad is it now do as I say NOT as I do. Leave your anger issues where they belong and get a life. The times I have left this site quietly a while ago because some times it became too much for me, I cannot count. So I grew up and got a thicker skin. Who am I to dictate what Jokes they tell.And what opinions they should have.
And I agree not a good way to get new members..... another one bites the dust
Oh my dear we have needed you so many times the voice of sense and reason, you I welcome back again with open arms, Solaris posted aploligies to all what more could he say????? yet still the insults kept coming.No matter as he is no longer on CS.
I do not believe this! it was a weak joke I know.......But come on guys lighten up it seems that any chance to put the boot in off you go. One starts everyone follows I have seen some really nasty posts on here getting stuck into members for no good reason and not a thing was said, one new guy tries to join which is hard for a first timer no wonder we cannot get anyone to stay.
There you go you can do with me what you will that should keep you going for a couple of days.
Jason !long time no see how are you ?tell us what has been going on.Its wonderful to see you back a lot of the old crowd has gone. Left or banned by mods. I do so hope you are in a good place now as you were doing it tough for a while there.Now you are back please do not be a stranger.Pretty good group on here.... well whats left of us but we are building up again slowly.
Like your thread very...... um one sided in favour of the male persuasion.But very good just the same.
Oh do not worry been on the Tassie Plane heaps of times including the smaller one to Devonport it gets a bit bumpy sometimes but you are not coming on that one are you???
Martia Forum Posts (2,888)
begone you rude person give you an inch look what you do with it 
RE: I miss...
Oh no lovebull you didnt send him suggestive emails too... did you. I know we get lonely but thats getting a bit too eager dont you think.