Oh, Sweetie. I can't tell you how right on you are here. I met my love here on CS. He was to come to visit me this month. Instead, in the past week he's been notified that he's being deployed to Iraq. He leaves during the night tonight.
I'm surprised and delighted at the intense feelings I have for this wonderful man that I have come to know. It's so different than dating in R/L. Instead of learning the superficial things about him, I've been learning about his heart and his soul.
Today is one of the most difficult days of my life. I've finally met this incredible man, whom I have the utmost love, respect and friendship for, yet he's leaving. Though it isn't by his doing, saying good bye to him today was one of the most difficult things I've ever done.
It's hard for even us to understand the feelings that we can have for someone we've never seen face to face, or touched. Yet the feelings are there. Our hearts have been laid bare. Our souls have been shared. This is the man that I love.
So, not by choice, but by circumstance, it will be many months before we stand before one another and look into each others eyes, and physically touch the body housing the heart and soul that we've grown to love. These are the things that I love. I am not familiar with his physical presence, just the features I see in pictures. But I look in the eyes and I know that heart and I'm familiar with that soul that is peeking back at me.
So, to answer your question, hun, virtual feelings are feelings nonetheless. It isn't our choice not to touch and feel, however, we can still have the love and feelings we would have had, had we had that opportunity to have our visit in a few weeks.
Oh, I'm better. I've made my peace with him leaving, but we're having a very frustrating day. He's so busy we don't have time to properly communicate what we need to today. They did change their deployment date to Friday, so we still have tonight and tomorrow. I don't yet know what time Friday, so thats still up in the air. After he leaves, I won't get to talk to him until around March 24 at this point. Just sucks.
Well, I had a countdown to look forward to, but instead of visiting me, he has to go to Iraq. I still feel good about it though. He's a fine man and I'm very fortunate to know him.
We'll get our countdown eventually. In 6-15 months.
Still, I'm happy with him and proud of the work he does.
Thank you. Didn't know how to deal with stuff. It was all new to me. But I can't change it, a good talk and I feel at peace again. We'll just handle it the best we can. I'll just miss him. I hate war.
Thank you for that. I lost my mom just over a year ago. She lived with me and was my best friend. I've missed her tremendously these last few days going through some hard times. It's good to remember that she is with me still, holding my hand, and wiping my tears. And that she will be there with me through the long months ahead. Thank you, I've been so busy missing, I forgot to feel her presence.
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