jimmydean69 Poetry (81)

Is it written to see, is it written to tell, will we learn to let go and thrive and continue to grow, will we fall or will we rise to set a precedence, to pretend is to fall to grow is to show what's inside to let it flow, to understand your inner glow, to rule without passion is insanity, to rule with dignity is for us to see, let us speak the world screams, let us be free the future calls us to be, the start of an humane humanity.

I can’t give my heart away because it’s ceases to exist on this plane maybe the next.
in this way or that way I’ve gradually found my way, even though it goes against the grain.
I got nothing to lose. I keep a solid mind and a settled state within a heart that’s beyond break. I look closer and closer beyond the clear eyes we’re my gazes slowly find the truth, I don’t need I don’t find weakness in the weak. I find strength in courage I find pity in judgement, I stay here enlightened, knowing there’s another teacher over there, A silent whisper comes from inside do I care, I heard the air quiet down settle your frown i die slowly and raise your crown and arise another day. To Sunlight.

A night time of evolution a high time for revolution a determined mutation of time,
indifferent to crime,
Turning to lawless moments of life,
expanding consciousness stretching out but returning to be exact,
acting out of spiritual conquest,
burying past events that may not have happened,
creating now as if it mattered,
timeless to be internal dialogue,
are we all insane?.
Or is this just how it is,
positioning to overtake the crown, rising to high, falling to low. Absolutes not guaranteed a curse or something to feed an order or structure unlike no other, wielding an axe or brandishing a cross. To come falling down and down like an endless domino game will we ever became to become as one <3

Lands of the forsaken
two world’s two destinies both falling apart, one desires another each desires there own, one living inside a flaming fire one living in a watery ocean one climbing one descending each of the same mission the same vision but seperate still propelling towards another dimension, fire above water loving in serenity and ending in eternity, deciding developing exploring forever to be instantaneous interactions looking for ways to connect to the divinity of ones own allowing death purposefully creating disconnection within all, wars hatred and enemies for both peace for none run run run falling into traps of consumption of all to be wasting time looking for a solution still without wondering or devising alternative ways of speaking alternate ways to live liberation from patience, waiting waiting waiting an end to this race on turn with this place errors to face riddles to solve and memories to forget unknown in creation ending in termination to be still. love and peace both rise to reach to find ease to bring in the end the end of what though life history memories existence or desire destruction disorder or are we creating a new world order?

My life is a funeral dying in life living in death remains not yet to be sold beginning to old, to many deaths to many ways to call it home, the remains to be left with all this alienation building from all things, starting over and over until I find myself looking at the inevitability of mortality dealing with pain living in vain gut wrenching sadness washes through the empty heart filled with grief of ones hope, caring and staring waiting and crying building and dying, to do what rise? no fall and fall again till nothing has taken me whole taken my soul writhing at night trying to defeat the sunlight faded lines trading rhymes defeated destroyed unknown to all be known to one reality is a manifestation of thought a memory of distortion a debate that’s killing likened to feel that if I fold will I live to fulfil my role, collapsing statements of family abuse turmoil that hides away like a monster in a cave to take to the grave nothing matters to live without telling people to stay without killing people to win without losing people to forgive is to lie to take is to die to end is to start I am a broken heart.

is it wrong to set aside my limits and believe
to enter a creation of thought and mystery
to understand that things may change within my belief,
in what though,
in me,
in you,
in destiny,
in God,
to trust the understandings of my mind
or to go with the great devine,
with so much said and such great debates i find myself confused,
if i believe in me will i create chaos within my own doubts,
to believe in you.. wait there aren't you me,
these thoughts are haunting me,
i just want to be free.

Sorry I was to loud to proud,
Listen i could listen but you hear me as if I'm dead or do i not exist,
I didn't scream,

Felt past this all,
Fell apart from this well,
Walked away from the rope,
It was always a joke,

Lost in time no matter no crime,
Still in touch with reality,

Living inside and out divedends that don't make sense,

Lying hiding from what inspiration creativity,
Creating reality as if it was such a huss,

Living life crying old loving hate,
Hating love,

To die like this would be unfortunate,
To live like this carries burdens inside and out,
Sounds pretty amusing unknown~~~

Twisted Dimensions.

Is it real, this pain I feel,
Am I right or have I totally lost site,
Smothering galaxies psychic truths,
Parallel dimensions twisted creations,
Find the right way the truth is it there,

I don’t know where,
I don’t know where,

Am I aware is this my fate to find the emptiness within
This debate, I cannot sleep, people look stare,
Are they really there,
Am I a mirror,
I feel like a terror,
Pain from soul not from heart,

I did not know from the start,
I do not know I just fall apart,
Fall apart leave this life find another,
Find out how traverse this immense universe is,

Look to see,
Find the key,
Don’t look at me,
I am free,

Not true I am trapped my mind is aware I’m stuck till I dare,
To follow myself into the lair,
Of hidden truths inside the mind,
To busy to know to keep track,
Flying soul lying whole,
Dying tree begins a new,

I have studied and studied and cannot find an answer,
Is it just a riddle this earth this fate this pain this debate,
Kama strikes again over and over I must learn quick,
I must master this trick,
Falling star out of the night,
How much beauty is foretold,
Am I sold???

understanding why,what,end,beginning,
truth,fact,lies, wondering wondering is this the right or is this the wrong,
believing in why,what,end,beginning,
not knowing who we are forgiving who and why,
History has a way of repeating itself,
i do not think this can go on forever,
i do not think i really need to know,
we will destroy our selves,
but still i am compelled, life is forever? nearly everyone believes,
this to be true, it is how it is. This is how they want us to think,
death fights for eternity, life fights for wisdom, i see gates everywhere,
I've seen all despair,sat here in my many chairs. unforgiving in eternity a hell's torment a denial of being,
regrets are a challenge a part of our self that there are flaws,
are we in a box or a design, do we have a future do we have a past,
should we know more when we are born or are we taught to forget,
and learn from regret,
i forget everyone has demons myself included,
when we fall do we not get back up?.
a random thought pops into my head maybe we are already dead.
so much confusion so much delusion, we are starting to see that this shit is globally hunger,famine,death,disease
who does this please figure that out.

My life dead my wife dead,
How can I find life when everything's dead Inside outside,
Why take my life why do you think I get into strife I am the underword, I'm am immortal, how you say you know me,
I'm not alive you are, I don't know why you believe in life we are all dead, well I have read, so are we alive or we dead? These are the voices the haunt my head, I once was happy, now I want to die, how come no one else was insane, I say this as a gift I'll soon be dead, I have had enough of life it's scrarred my head, I want you to know and learn I'm not doing it to hurt I have learnt death is better then life, I have been there many of times, one day we will see and I'll come back and tell thee, what life use to be, a matrix of lies

I have no answers
I have no questions
I do not know
I can not tell
I am under a spell
I am dying
I am lying
I am knowing
I am going.
To see for myself

as i sit here in this chair i'm fighting my inner demons in mid air a lightning strike shower of every hour death cycles becoming prominent life forces run free outside we've seen whats in side deep of me, i certainly would state that i'm listening to fate waiting for the time that eventuality life cant debate innings of innings i've sat here waiting wind gushing life rushing no time to sit back no time to wait make a move make it quick without a chance to think i ask myself what should come true of me, clarity comes closer. Things become clear,I don't have to worry about fear, Life is beautiful know-one could see i've done what's right for me, ive taken a challenge and i've done it alone and that was a hard road, Everyone was there in a way, But until now i wasn't, It was hard for me cause i was off my tree someone dosed me full of something i didnt see, life has beckoned me to challenge all beliefs, i cannot see what you have for me, i ask you now one thing that comes from within if you are it please let it begin....