jimmydean69 Poetry (81)

I stood to strong for to damn long, i sat by and watched it all take place, a softened heart among many treasures i hold without a trace i found someone to see not to know dont let go, i walked through forever to find that dove, i carried the pain until she changed lanes and wasted my love, now i am just an old soldier without a gun, standing when i should run, such fun. Today i am now free as not many can see I’m buried underneath my favourite tree thanks to thee.

In this day i cannot say why there eyes met with symmetrical position,
dying elevates the need for life.

recognition is an understanding don’t pretend,
the soul cries until the body denies such demise. listening to a fate sealed by the sealed, toxic enemies created by desire which emotion with ugly denomination,
falls guaranteed ill relief a drug a temptation to alter the alter,
to reset time, it does not exist now is when now began otherwise imagination was a terminal premonition fate foretold by few understood by one. empty barrels crash its gone its gone. Forgotten to grim this end will just begin.

If i feel the need to die to fly high to touch the sky. Let me be let me be, should i happen to write to souls in the night the ones that lost the fight, let me be let me be, if theres nothing inside left to hide i fall down on a blade to take away the pain felt from yesterday, let me be let me be, if i wander out to a desert ranch with no chance for a return dance, let me be let me be, if i am not for this world anymore because i cant settle the score, let me be let me be, if i come through and continue to see, just let me be let me be!!.

Always as movements in the grass. timing is like a shot gun. Shoot reload shoot reload,
enemy’s everywhere I use the sky to calm the air,
destination unknown cities outgrown death circles like vultures in the sky, looking for a feed to set the atmosphere. Everywhere as I walk through the valley of death I become the valley and the sea,
COVID patients in search of an excuse to belong this is so wrong, immunity was once grown let it be known,
survival is constant invent to defend destroy such a ploy,
playing with something unknown,
is such that it all has grace to save face,
underground is where we’ll be hiding from the sea.
Yet cherishing it all to begin with nothing but lies in disguise destroy rebuild disguise rebuild history in a hat a magician without the cat,
a fool looking up so it is as such it’s all or bust,
never ending tales of Turmoil,
restructure reinvent just vent,
armies circling around land mines in standing ground halt halt halt,
revolt revolt revolt,
Destinations of existence of a life once worn upon the sleeve now it’s nothing but thieves,
graveyards full,
plagues upon plagues, fighting for who don’t know why don’t know when it storms again. Situation disarmed the people rest just to begin another test,
the future is unkind everyone goes blind into the darkest of nights we deploy our battlefield is ready our minds are steady rest rest rest as much as i can say agent orange in the air masks on,
rebuild restructure reinvent,
constant torment another day begins walking through tunnels already made situations cannot leave it’s partly the grief let us go again shoot kill destroy it’s all or nothing winner takes all no room for thoughtful doom is this my room shrouded in mystery,
calm be still someone walks through time stands still.
Rebuild restructure reinvent,
rebuild restructure reinvent. Gold mines calling time grows short off the lights go set the scheme for another dream……. (3:16). S.A.D

in reality they are not a reality, maybe me maybe you maybe not,
so we ain’t saints it’s clear to know we are all looking for our place to flow. this is more of an adventure so wait and understand that i am now writing with no hands, the truth is a lie, the lie is the truth, it matters not we’ve found our spots everyone makes mistakes, I now have no brakes. A little understanding goes a long way like a steam train coming of the tracks, wondering who’s next. I’m not worried because I have been through hell, sometimes feels like I’m under a spell, in my defence these family values are past tense, do not be worried for I am not really here. I can’t die because I believe I am already dead, just two steps ahead, my only wish would be would be for you to remember me me me the way I use to be, I regret sadly that these family values are not what I thought, not what I was taught, not in my heart not in my soul, I’ve gone down the rabbits hole to late to turn back as I am back in black, to see red and green my eyes can see that way maybe I’m a day away from finding my way i am stronger then all. Will this all just vanish someday realising this is all paper mache and clay. It’s insanity, I’ve taken a lot of lsd. While meditating with monks it’s pretty clear we are all here just to cry or is it just some sort of lie , is this the end, I’m up In the sky. I am not afraid to die….

I take back from the mind of the insane I walk away ashamed I come to test the validity of the rest of life is this such a hike to the unknown I creep an moan to fall on sacred knives to let them see it was not part of my insanity it was just a killer twice come let’s go I take everything into the unknown I walk freely through open deserts I come clearly unto you unto you. I seek to find a place we’re there is no crime no blasphemy no evil that is to see I glance ahead in time today I’ve found my rhyme I’ve committed a crime for them to see let it be the end of my insanity. Will it come upon me open flesh wounds open problems to astonish no it was your promise that I’ll never die I fall back without a doubt I shout mortal tears are upon me I search through all this insanity mamed no caged a mind that wants to be free I am insanity I open all doors to each realm I sit still I wear my crown I don’t step back because I am not here. I am not here. I will go on through this misconception that I rule I don’t. It’s nature that is gods wish not that humans suffice. That humans acknowledge that they are responsible for the pit fall in evolution.

Into the night I follow. Shadows and ghosts are hollow into the future I creep taking away the night to freak as I seal winding rounds are around winding truths make a sound. Into the night I flee to seek to find a place for me to stake. A shadow of light approaches I kneel to take it on as I heal into the night I flee into the night I flee. Sounding so harsh I take away from the moment. Into the night I go. To find a place for me to show. Into the night you get a fright you take flight to end the darkness of the forever night. Into the night I go. Into the night I let it go, approvals not necessary I run to stay I stay to run into the night I flee.

Coming round looking down the enemy that always around keep my feet solid chosen memories come through I am not clouded by you I see your art I swear we’re apart but similarly taken bound repeating sounds I stay in one place for eternity do you dare take my seat. A memory that’s haunting a belief that’s thwarted let me die let me go I have no more empathy for the show stay away stay clear I’m outta here. Death is not so much a stranger as a friend he never gave up he never gave in. Western foot stamps aloud I cry the raven is in your eye a fountain of life spring into copper I state of mind i will not wonder i will not take a chance to pass this entrance I fall back and turn again back to memories. Awakened of stealth I die today to lead my freedom parade, I guess your stress I’m right nicely dressed. Sages flowers taken but sour ignite the light to run again to freedom what a state I escalate. Today I’m free I scream. So let me be.

Coming to terms with the end is coming, to run to the goal to the evil rush illustrates born, everywhere take me in a taxi to score I want it all I want it all,
I wanna drop to my knees pray to steal pray to God endless heal is the suffering endless is how it is.
Endless is how it is. red reliefs looking out for the thief,
winding road to freedom from a pain in the rain desperate corpses run free run free. Muses dying everywhere muses dying everywhere it’s as close to death as I like to be just a memory just a spike. Take it easy on me take me away I’ve ended yesterday. I start again to begin another day blood rushed eyes rush in the evil rush. Death becomes a fad in eternity’s im glad I’m dreaming of feeedom chaos,
choose your battles everything comes down to a once choose hear the voice the calling from within,
to not try steal not try cheat. Everyday all ways points to sin. Do we run no we manufacture someone,
Dealing it around don’t make a sound. Death is close by just say high take me away take me away,
This is pain this is eternal rain this is how it is.
Dream recall serpents hall. Damnation you cried you felt that goodbye. The evil rush don’t dismiss the evil rush. It strikes a pain to begin again take away my sword I’ll rule again from within, let it begin. Let it begin.

the coming days nothing to say learn to live through the illusion of delusion, instant reaction thoughts come true nothing to do nothing to do, opening pathwaves of sin nothing to begin nothing to begin. learn to live in wasted places, overgrown hedges revealing edges of sanity's known wandering through this all creeping sounds and voices all are a plenty I'm losing my identity,

wasted days nothing to say drive me away
drive me away. into the blindness of my mind always left behind, crafted axes shallow graves shining blades tied to caves, blood soaked memories clouded reality.
losing it all running backwards is this real enemies fallen shadows fade away into there own hallowed cave, given away

does this all have to be,
does this all have to be,

these memories are daunting stepping through the grim truth these are forever forever forever, dying together together together,

underneath underground it makes a sound
of pain behind the rain it comes out again to take me from within take me as a slave as a death that cannot be saved.

As i have seen this all before,
Nothing else matters we've been here before,
left with peace and war this has separated us all,
I can see i can hear the pain of the fall,
From grace we fell it wasn't our fault,
Evil thoughts dwell in our mind,
Are we connected from behind,
The veil has been lifted now we can see,
We were all blinded by the the thoughts of tv,
Now our world is in crisis because of these deeds,
Now through this mind altering effect we have created a false belief,
If only we stand up tall we might develop a place for us all,
To the top we are heading,
I see this to be true,
life is a blessing but we need faith,
In ourselves and our being and our planet,
We will see that nothing else matters except to be free,
From the system of these things,
life matters all not just one but all,
We are conflicted by the empire of darkness but soon we will be free,
To develop ourselves and live in eternity,
We are all one but separated by an evil entity,
Hope is sometimes not to be trusted,
Belief in anything will turn your life into a tree,
With leaves falling and growing forever on our road to the truth,
This is all evident as i have seen,
Mind over matter that one is confusing in and out we are all are experiencing pain,
A change in life is indeed possible,
We need to learn to see the truth is within you and me,
All this will happen its a guarantee...

The downward spiral of denial,
The release of the span of the cowards,
The immunity achieved through lies,
The confusion of the shadow of justice,
Who knows what is,
Complete selflessness leads to less pain but ignorance does not suffer there rain,
Are people blind to what is,
Do they know they are to blame for the stars that fade through the fame,
Amminionity is a facade, we are all blue printed but is this the grand plan or is this the shadow of demand, scream I say scream I pray that all become known there is an awesomeness of creation there is a grand plan but there is also a deviance I think we will all pray to receive and announce that they believe to be a witness of a miracle if you choose to be free God only hopes you find it, don't let me down.