psygnar Poetry (12)

Deserted again.
You speak to me through the shadows.
Walking in closed rooms, using cold words.
Captured by the night.
The yearning escapes from my embrace.
Strange silhouettes whisper your thoughts, scream your sadness.
And they all turned away,
unable to face more of this death.
Credence in my word.
Written in dust, tainted by memories.
I confess my hope, recognize my loneliness.
Your laughter weeps the truth.
Push me into corners.
Confirming the epitaph of my soul
and displaying the once unknown KARMA.

And so you left us. Jaded and gaunt, some September. Wilted with the seasons. But hidden inside the delusion I saw you eyes, somewhere.
Devoid of death. The aura poises amidst (the storm). In solid tears I linger, a parlor glade, moonlit sorrow. Lonely resting pools. Relics of the moon-dogged lake. Whisper: "All your words are miss given."
Am I like them? Those who mourn and turn away. Those who would give anything to see you again. If only for another second. Your face was, like the photograph. Painted white. We did not speak very often about it. What does it matter now?
Cloak of autumn shroud. I gaze, dim ricochet of stars. I reckon it is time for me to leave. You sleep in the light. Yet the night and the silent water still so dark.

A child of autumn was born into a world of deceit and death and a land of ice. A break of bonds would take her away and install a sense of loss and eternal sorrow. She walks across the country, she holds her head up high in the rain. A mother is screaming for help and she turns around to stare at a scene from her memory. She is hiding a wish in her heart. That flows through her blood always. And it's culled from a dream, that someone is waiting to say her name and call her to his side at the cusp of eternity.

The mist is sleeping on the water. And winter is hiding in my heart. Thorns in my eyes are slowing me down. I can't pass through to the other side. She knows I'm the one who sought her. But when we fall, we'll fall so hard. She holds a secret and won't show me how. How to break the riddle in her eyes. This is treason of the mind and soul. There's no reason why you would go. Inside the ghost of love is laughing. It mocks the footsteps where I go. It tells me nothing has been lost. It whispers, "You've seen darkness before." In time the hurting will subside. And longing is overthrown. What's left is a void that grows inside. And the echo of a failure. This is treason of the mind and soul. There's no reason why you would go. Have you ever had the feeling of a sorrow inside? Have you ever been the reason why a hope subsides? Have you ever seen the aftermath of giving up? Have we given up? Is it over? Have you given up? Is winter hiding in your heart?

Will their children cry, when their mother dies. And in the autumn of their lives, will they feel the same? "I see you my sweet Satan. Come back tonight, out of the courtyard." Her longing for me, coming down like hail. Why did you leave me? Come here inside and tell me how. How in my final days I've found her out. The light comes on, the signal for us to end our lives. You wait beneath the white sheets and you wait forever. The night comes on, your weakness starting to erase all your lies. So I left you alone, we all left you alone. Lock the children away from harm. They'll lock all your reason why, seeking tenderness with a dagger. Skin is blocked by the years of trial, you felt abandoned in the fog of flesh. Sitting in place from the dead, awaiting the face of the moon to ascend. You follow the siren in your head

Show me a sign of troubles in your heart. Spare me your lies and tell me that you're mine. Made me a slave to the secrets of your silence. But you told me to stay. And you told me you're mine. And our bodies float on the river to the oceans of demise. In light of all things to come, why do you despair? Because when you have no one, no one would care. So don't care. And all things will come undone. There is nothing to share. I'll be waiting for no one. And no one is there to care. Can't see, can't feel. You run, I long. I wait, he comes. Takes you away. In the embers of summer. All things must die. There's a passage of fire ahead. Fire on the other side. There comes a time when the river runs dry. Winter comes and we sacrifice. Our lives.

The grave of our youth is up ahead. And life has become a burden. We move in circles of suppressed despair. Waiting for the sun. And turning stones to find evidence. But it hides in the recesses of our hearts. A written decree of our loss. And we carried no faith in the cross. And the cold years are coming for the victims of a longing. Out through the doors of starvation. And into the rains of damnation. Where the bitter winds are singing for the victims of a longing. We carried along through squalor. With an inborn need to dominate and possess. It gives birth to an anger inside. And we can't control this. The blood of departure in our tracks. Dripping from our emptying vessels. Your hand reached out to hold mine. But you're grasping melting ice. Asleep in the rain, a child once again. And the ghost in my head has forgiven me, lifted his curse upon me.

Oh dismal mourning...
I open my weary eyes once again
My life has been left hollow and ashes have filled the gorge of my within
Last night I hoped and wished I'd die in my sleep but no catharsis was granted to me
Will this pain ever pass?
The enchanting perfume of winter and the bleak, cold breath of her still haunts me...
Oportet ubique pulchritudinem evanescere

So half of me rode to the mountains and the other half soared high in the winds to a place where the angels had fallen, the soil gagged and choked on their wings
My soul was the pale skyline that she stretched across the horizon
Two years had brought the fire that she paints upon my loathsome canvas

She is the dark one...
As a bird I watched her from my cold tower in the heavens and when she fell from the northplace, I flew down and embraced her
I took her where the snow falls forever, she showed me the haunted woods
We gathered together in the oaken palace, free from both death and life
The fire blazed in her eyes one day and she tore the soul from my chest
With a bleeding heart, I flew back to my cold tower to never escape and lie in a pool of death forever

I saw the nightfall...
It called to me like a river of shadows
It sang to me with the cries of a thousand ravens that blackened the sky as they took flight and sank the Sol
I shall never trust the sun again, Eridanis Nadir

I ran away far into the woods
To find the Sol, I called to her...
"I don't want to be forgotten...I never wanted to be human"
NEVER!!!!!

So alas the sun had descended, her fire burned brilliant in the sky
The trees bore their withered silhouettes, that cast a spell upon unearthly white
No wolf shall keep his secrets, no bird shall dance the skyline
And I am left with nothing but an oath that gleams like a sword
To bathe in the blood of man
Mankind...

The end of the earth is upon us
Pretty soon it will all turn to dust

So get up!!!
And forget the past...
Go outside and have a blast..

Go a thousand miles in a jet airplane
Go out of your mind go insane!!!

To a place that you've never been before
Eat ice cream or you'll lick the floor

Because...
The end of the earth is upon us
Pretty soon it will all turn to dust

Goodbye my friends
Goodbye world
I'll see you in the next life

Beating
Heart still beating for the cause
Feeding
Soul still feeding from the loss
Aching
Limbs are aching from the rush
Fading
You are fading from my sight
Break of morning, coldness lingers on
Shroud me into nightmares of the sun
Moving
I am moving closer to your side
Luring
You are luring me into the night
Crying
Who is crying for you here
Dying
I am dying fast inside your tears
Plunging towards bereavement faster yet
Clearing thoughts, my mind is set
Devious movements in your eyes
Moved me from relief
Breath comes out white clouds with your lies
And filters through me
You're close to the final word
You're staring right past me in dismay
A liquid seeps from your chest
And drains me away
Mist ripples round your thin white neck
And draws me a line
Cold fingers mark this dying wreck
This moment is mine
Help me cure you
Atone for all you've done
Help me leave you
As all the days are gone
Night fall again
Taking what's left of me
Slight twist, shivering corpse
Ornated with water, fills the cracks
Clasped in my limbs by tradition
This is all you need

"Black Rose Immortal"

In the name of desperation
I call your name
A lamentation I sigh
Again and again

Spiritual eclipse
The gateways are closed for me to seek

The night...
A veil of stars, watching
My shadow is born from light
The light of the eye, in darkness

Over troubled waters memories soar
Endlessly, searching night and day
The moonlight caresses a lonely hill
With the calmness of a whisper

I wear a naked soul
A blank face in the streaming water
It is cold in here
Frost scar my coat with dust

Eyes attach to your mute portrait
We spoke only through thoughts
Together we gazed, awaited
Hours brought thirst and the rising sun

Sunbirds leave their dark recesses
Shadows glide the archways

Do not turn your face towards me
Confronting me with my loneliness
You are in a forest unknown
The secret orchard
And your voice is vast and achromatic
But still so precious

Lullaby of the crescent moon took you
Mesmerized, its kaleidoscopic face
Granted you a hollow stare
Another soul within the divine herd

I have kept it
The Amaranth symbol
Hiddin inside the golden shrine
Until we rejoice in the meadow
Of the end
When we both walk the shadows
It will set ablaze and vanish
Black rose immortal

It is getting dark again
Dusk shuffle across the fields
The evening trees moan as if they knew
At night I always dream of you

Cleared the fog that was veiled around me
And blurred my sights
Suddenly, I'm no longer aching
To honor my plights

Rising moon and my skin is peeling
Past undone
Suddenly, I can't justify
What I had become