keithmaui Poetry (14)

you may seem to notice
that i do not always seem to please...
if you don't understand
then i give you the stand...

i may seem to be different
but i'm just a part of the indent...
well,for you i may behave strange
yet everybody has there own way...
i may see you strange too and you may see me
strange...that the strangest way...
no choice...
deal with it...
cause we we're not born to please everybody...

Once i was told,
that you were so cold...
don't care and don't mind
so your just one of a kind...

in the secrets of the place,
a royal bloom comes in race,
knowing that a blank face
comes in the heart of a gaze...

discovered unknowingly...
in a time that's unmeasurably..
i'll maybe just glancing at you,
but it was reality that made a clue...
that once i noticed you...
because of the hidden smile on you..

why?
a question of a lifetime...
why,
why do a heart needs to love..
why,
why do my heart tells me that i love you..
but why can't i say it...
why....

why do i need to think of you,
and why when i close my eyes i see you..
why...
when can i anwser this...
why does my heart needs to suffer from deep inside because of you.
why....

when is the right time that my why's are answered..
maybe only time can answer all my why's...
just don't know why...

no matter what they say,
no matter what they gossip...
no matter how i look,it's just me...
rather than to please everybody..
i'd rather choose to be simply me...

don't ask,don't judge..
cause i wanted to be just simply me,anyone
who opposes,that's not my problem cause
i just wanted to be the real me..

When i know things are not for me,
I learn how to let go...
it doesn't mean I'm weak
but i'm just showing how strong
I am to fight the urge
of wanting something
I'm not supposed to have....

eating,sleeping,working and hanging out alone...
makes me weak,makes me sick...
makes me wonder,makes me think...
what a life,there's no use....

a voice is just whisphering,
a sound is just echoing...
what a lonely one...
....just alone....

say it again,
let me hear it...
where are you,
i can't find,i can't see....your close but your so far...
don't leave me,please don't...cause i'm afraid to be alone...

I was walking all alone one lonely day
walking in an unknown path...
my hands are shaking,my knees wants to break down...
amidst of it,i tried to walk straight...

i feel the hunger,the thirst,the exhaustion...
i fell in the ground...i don't know how.....
when i opened my eyes,two eyes are staring....watching....
i wonder why,my mind is blank...for just a little while i stood up and saw nothing...

i never saw him again,but until now
i remember an old story of my grandmother that sometimes...
an angel comes in the unexpected time in an unexpected way..
sometimes,i'm thinking if angels appear in disguise...

maybe an angel is waiting somewhere out there to be loved and be discovered by an unknown angel in disguise...

i was there...
i can see you...
but i don't know if you feel me...
hear my voice whisphering unto your ears...
hear me,hear me as i say i love you..

don't ignore me,
don't refuse to hear me,
don't say i can't see
cause for sure you will regret..

i'm just here..
i'm just all around waiting for you...
open your eyes,open your heart..
you'll feel that both of us are just trying to find..
the unknown one..

i was a kid when i begin loving you,
i don't know the meaning of love but i felt it
it was a mistake i know,
to take a you as a vow

rush,oh gush
i felt it at the wrong time
hoping to correct it fine.

time decides,
when the wrong becomes right
and the uncorrect becomes correct..
wait for the right time,
don't rush for you will just go for a gush

time decides
time waits
time of right love will come,hold on
just wait

one,two,three.....
beat of a heart that hates....
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9......
a beat that loves.....

hard to love a heart that doesn't love
easy to let go of a heart that loves...
even in love there's too much injustices..
maybe its a trend,its a cycle....

if the reason of loving is to cry,
better not love....
and if the cause is love better not cry...

if love is perfect then
you will not feel love...
and if you cannot feel love,you will feel sad...

sometimes, a person cannot love
and appreciate the beauty of a rose
without including the thorns...
that is the hearts injustices..

i'm watching you without you noticing it..
i'm hoping that someday you will be mine...
the nice smile and an angel face reach the heavens....
don't just look at me for my heart will beat more...

in your smile,i'm astonished and amazed...
and everytime you move,my world stops...
the song from my heart is only for you...
i hope that someday you'll discover this love of mine...

i'm loving you without you knowing it...
please don't be angry...my heart was strucked by cupid that i thought would never love..
i still cannot come close cause my heart is overthrowned by fast beating..

in your smile i'm hypnotized...
everytime you come close,my world stops...
my heart is shouting your name..
i hope you will feel this secret love of mine..

in your smile,my heart beats faster,but my world stops...just in your smile...

tired of the same story...
tired of the words samely said...
tired of the all the things...
tired of being tired....

may the wind blow...
blow in my mind and bring the message straight to your ear..
i'm afraid to tell what's inside me,
i'm afraid you'll discover that my brain is thinking of you...

may the breeze give me the courage to tell you..
tell you how my heart beats for you...
listen,listen,listen...
i can't say it but hear and listen to the whisphers of my heart...