friends4now Poetry (4)

To Love you is to see my future in your eyes.

To hold you is to hold on for the rest of my life,

The man that will never let go.

To kiss your lips is to understand what heaven tastes like

To feel you next to me is to feel the safety of thine arms

All I ever was accepted and turned away

All I am is looked upon with unconditional love.

All I will be waited with bated breath and excited thoughts

In my eyes and in my heart there has never will never be another

For everything you have given me and everything yet to come –thank you

For just being you

Too soon life is gone on this earth yet our love will last an eternity.

We will be together again soon so don’t allow the pain of our separation to inflict you much

We are as one-now and always

No matter how hard I try these days, things do not add up
I have convinced myself that being single is good yet;
all I want is your arms wrapped around me.
to feel the warmth of your embrace
To feel the heat of your breath on my neck
The caress of your tongue against mine.
I miss the way you stroke my hair
The way you would wake me with the sweetest kisses.
Why did you have to leave me now?
We promised forever now all I have is time alone.
You were called to duty 3 years ago and I bid you farewell
All I see through the tears is you walking to the plane.
You promised me you would be back
You said you would never leave me alone
I feel like I need to wake up
This can’t be happening
This has to be an awful dream you can’t be gone
I can’t do this alone
I need you with me
How will I ever find another when all I want is you
Please don’t be gone now
Please come back to me

Don’t say I’m first and then put me last...
Don’t promise the future....
Then live in the past....
Don’t say you respect me....
Then laugh with your guys....
Don’t say I should trust you....
Then feed me lies....
Don’t get my hopes up....
Then not follow through....
Don’t say you’ll be there....
When you know it’s not true....
Don’t make me laugh....
And then make me cry....
Don’t say forever....
And then say goodbye....
Don’t tighten your grip....
And then start to stray....
Love me or don’t....
You can’t have it both ways

As I sit in the nothingness of my soul I wonder why
why have my emotions slipped
why is it so hard just to feel
It seems as though my emotions have been forced
I am putting on a false smile to get through my day
I loved you more than anyone ever and you killed my heart
I see you happy without a care
I live in anger I live in pain
Are you human? Do you even care what you have done to me?
I have been left an empty shell of my previous self
I watch the sun go down every night and it reappear every morning and wonder
how the world continued to spin when my world has gone to another
How could you not care? How dare you treat me like this!
I was good to you! You let believe I was what you wanted-what happened
Now you’re gone and it’s like I never existed
How do I move on? How am I supposed to be better without you?
Will you ever come back?
If I don’t believe you will come back to me I don’t know how to live
Please come back soon
I miss my soul