What I think is wrong with relationships n marriages n families today is the complete disregard for vows... Whether u r married or not when u commit yourself to another person u have made an unspoken promise to the other. My 5 year relationship ended almost a year ago and I have come to understand that it wasn't just him....maybe this challenge was to test my commitment....my commitment to the good AND the bad the SICKNESS and the health. We were not married but engaged, house, son...might have just as well been and when he needed me most I failed him... I let the bad win and the sickness win. I should have not turned my back on him I should have been there when he needed someone to love him, understand him and help him. We all make mistakes and I understand that now more than ever! I didn't write this blog for comments, tho u r more than welcome to, but merely to get it out.... I just needed to get it out!
I'm so ready for the freakin weeken...... Friday has taken so long to get here, but got one of my girlfriends visiting from Georgia and can't wait to hang with her. Hope everyone has good food, good company and good times!!
for the first time off of the site. I was nervous and scared and anxious and well basically I was a mess....we have talked for a few months and I am known to back out at the last minute because of my nerves....man they get to me. Well anyways it was nice....he spoiled me, which I am not used to, and was sweet, which I am not used to either. I just wanted to find out if anyone acted like me...like a complete idiot.... anyways he lives far away and all so I was wondering if anyone has had any experiences with what I am going through..... Just wanted to say.... it wasn't as scary as my anxiety was making it out to be!
After not posting for a bit I just wanted to tell everyone hello. It's easy to get caught in your everyday stuff and forget to share the love. I know that with my full time job and my full time kids
I barely have time to even get on here, oh....plus my pos phone lets not forget. Have a wonderful week everyone! (Muah!)
son is participating in the St. Jude's Trike-A-Thon and I was wondering how many people we could reach on this site that are willing to donate $1. There is a link
and you can go to this and pledge $1 or as much as you would care to donate. We are hoping to raise at least $100 but would LOVE nothing more than to raise more. If you go to the site you will see where the money goes and all the children that it will help.
Thanks to everyone who pledges as well as those who just take the time to read this post or check out the site.
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I have been talking to some of the sweetest guys...from the site n near home but I can't let my damn guard down enough to even see them as anything other than liars. They call me sweetie, babe, my queen... They buy me things and take me places but yet I am having the hardest time trying to love any of them! They are all aware I talk to other guys n everything but I don't know tht they should just be ok with it. What happened to the guys that used to fight for you. Where's. My kinnicky- ya know! I mean I'm not lookin for a knight in shining armor but at least the knight! Hell what would I even be able to do with a knight? I'm so damaged n broken n scarred I don't know if I would be good for anyone. Wow!!!! Did I just say that?
I guess what I'm tryin to say is that I've been hurt so many times by the guys in my life that profess their love for me that I don't think I will EVER believe any of them.
Any suggestions? Good ones, not the you should just b yourself bs or the give him a shot shit! Real advice!
I have been talking to some of the sweetest guys...from the site n near home but I can't let my damn guard down enough to even see them as anything other than liars. They call me sweetie, babe, my queen... They buy me things and take me places but yet I am having the hardest time trying to love any of them! They are all aware I talk to other guys n everything but I don't know tht they should just be ok with it. What happened to the guys that used to fight for you. Where's. My kinnicky- ya know! I mean I'm not lookin for a knight in shining armor but at least the knight! Hell what would I even be able to do with a knight? I'm so damaged n broken n scarred I don't know if I would be good for anyone. Wow!!!! Did I just say that?
I guess what I'm tryin to say is that I've been hurt so many times by the guys in my life that profess their love for me that I don't think I will EVER believe any of them.
Any suggestions? Good ones, not the you should just b yourself bs or the give him a shot shit! Real advice!
I wish that I would not live my life around my phone and its capabilities because I had parties all weekend at my house and I got my blackberry wet and it dont work and my back up blackberry has been dropped so many times that it won't charge. These stupid things! Any suggestions? I have decided to go with prepaid and say the heck with the rate increases, insurance that never really does you any good, and the control the company has over you for the period of the contract.
Oh my gosh, someone lemme know if u can help me out with this one.... I wake up this morning realizing that I dreamt about my ex (of 5 years) all night... We have been split for 8 months and I haven't seen or spoken with him once... Yet I could see his face, hear his voice, react the way I would if I actually ran into him. It has me completely thrown off because its thr first dream I've had about him since the split! Any comments? Advice? Anyone ever had this happen?
Anyone know what it is? Have one? Two? More? I was never something that I thought of as something I would be into as I am all about one man and the hopes of making that commitment.... But in 2011 I have realized that ya gotta get yours and guess what.... I'm gonna cash in one of my FWB cards tonight! Hope that this blog doesn't offend anyone... I don't mean it that way.... Just lettin guys know that we girls do it too. Hell and we are better than yall! :) have a great night... I know I will!
and besides the unpredictable Florida weather (it rained) I had a great day. I don't know why so many people dread Mondays... it's just another day. I try to send out good morning texts to all my friends in the mornings so as to put a smile on as many faces that I can. I know that no matter what....if you are woke up to an alarm clock, your kid saying what's for breakfsst or the telephone from a friend saying that you'd better hurry cuz you are gonna be late....it's always nice to know that you are thought about, even in the smallest of ways.... Even tho I may not "know" you.... I hope your day went well!
I am a little messed up....given everyone shud b allowed every once n a while. Anyways...I'm thinkin....bout things..... That ya think bout when ya a little messed up.... And well I'm fightin the urge to find a "friend" I just wanna know how many would b willing to "talk" to me to "get" me through.... Hey, I'm a honest kinda girl n we all have needs.....that so intensify when alcohol is involved.... Anyways... Lemme know!
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