Why believe when everything is always the same?

Be patient, the right one will come along. Don't worry, she is out there.

Funny thing is that most of these statements come from either one of the following types of people:
a. someone who is already married
b. someone who already has some special but may not be married
c. someone who claims to have many fish following their line

Never comes from another single person. I join websites to look for a potential friend with the hopes that maybe something special will build from that. What I am left with is a bunch of friends who want to use me as a punching bag for the sins of their ex's. Mighty frustrating after spending so much time with people just to have them say after 4 months of emailing, chatting, and texting...'You're a good man with a good heart someone special will find you one day.'

So I try the online thing again and again only to come up with the same emptiness I experience everyday in real life. Pictures help broadcast you and you will get more responses. Send e-flowers, send e-mail, smile at them, etc. Participate in forums and blogs and more people will see you and you will get more interests.

Don't get me wrong I keep myself busy...I write, I play games on the computer, I shop, I read, I pray, I clean up after myself, I keep my home straight, I am always available when others need help or advice or just someone to listen to them. I cook, I sew, I iron, and I sleep. I changed my shift at work from daytime to nighttime so that I could lose track of the endless number of days I have been miserably alone - almost 500 days now. Hard to keep up hope & dreams when around ever corner is the same face smack of being ignored, rejected, excluded.