THOUGHTS TO PONDER ...
"Why is it that you always hide things from me?" he asked one evening. We were chatting as usual on the phone, because of the constraints we face."It is not that I hide things, it is just that I forget", I lied to you, knowing that I would never hide anything that is very important, that must be said.
My mind screamed at you .." have you ever wondered why I don't want to talk about the little things that I do for others with you, or even what happens in my life at times, with you?"
I did not tell you, but my mind screamed, wanting a response. I know, it would turn to an argument.
How could I be open with the one man I love, when he criticizes every single thing I say or do?
And so, once more the silence reins, and may expand probably for life this time, because I told you to leave me because what ever I do is not good for you.
I can't beat the emptiness within. I just know, the indifference I have been experiencing just before this battle we had.
May be, you were looking for a way out, for reasons of your own, and I provided the perfect background for a smart decision.
It is amazing indeed. We have kept switching off and on all these years. The yearning to be close has always been present. I have only to have a glimpse of you, I fall back all over again.
What ever the reasons are, I am hoping that you are safe, happy and content even though you have lost so much because of our relationship.
I will always love you.
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