a little bit of rambling from the top of my head.
i can't tell if i'm getting more bitter or if life's getting weirder as time passes by. I've spent the better part of the last 4-5 months in solitude. Friend's were fake and it seems like the only people that i attract want something from me. I want friends that like me for my personality and shared interests, not people that just want something from me. I feel like a balloon drifting along in a room with knive walls with a breeze.to keep from getting depressed i've been reading, and continue to try and better myself, but by now it's almost like what's the point? Job hunting isn't anything to help raise your self worth; continually you feel useless from rejection. do i have something tattooed on my forehead saying bad goods? i might as well. rejection from everything.
been studying hard, doing the school thing. something needs to give.
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Keep doing what you doing and treat all this dating.......as a cake to the cup of coffee.... you can have it, you can enjoy your coffee without it....
I've been single for a while and i love my life. If someone wants to join me, cool, if not, at least i learned how to be happy no matter what. One day, i know we gonna be nicely surprised.
solitude is fine, locking yourself away from the world sometimes is fine also, just take care you dont forget to come back out.. too easy sometimes to become a hermit.
it's not that i dislike being single, it's just sad that so many people are janky and only want to be around me for free stuff or to take advantage of my niceness / hospitality.
I think if you stop smoking so much weed your perception of your world will change for the better.
I know these feelings very well.. Rarely some positive thoughts come to rescue.. keep on reading and as trivial as it might sound - start doing some sports - at least for 15 minutes a day. It really can make you more energetic and help you feel better in the end. and maybe start doing something creative :) write down some stupid rhymes pouring down your frustrations in the shape of some completely crazy story.
well, hope you will find a job and a circle of good friends soon!
crossing my fingers!
women have not rejected you, they have realised they are not the one for you, leaving you free to continue to self improve until the right one comes along. So keep out there because you don't want to miss her, or the job opportunity. While you have nothing to do, go and work for a charity, you will meet people and be helpful to people in need , this will build up your self worth immeasurably.It will help in networking , volunteers always make great prospects as employees.
Take this time to get to know more about yourself, about what you need to change and what works and what not. About what you really want out of life and keep developing your skills and your own personality. Sometimes we want changes, but the only way to achieve them is by doing things differently, growing and learning from our mistakes