Forgive

So these past few weeks I have been thinking if I should allow myself to forgive. I actually started with feeling so numb and allowed myself to forget everything for awhile. And then one day, I told myself, ok, deal with it now.
I am pissed off, no doubt about this and i could strangle one very insensitive person and i feel like it would be the happiest moment of my life(ok this is creepy). A barrage of some very hurtful words can even do this person in. A satisfied smile after everything's been said and done. And then I thought, ok, whoa! hey, slow down lady...where do you think you're headed?, clearly not somewhere nice and peaceful. OK! So someone hurt you. Someone did something really really mean and yeah, ok, you can feel hatred and you might even shoot green laser beams from your eyes just by the mere thought of this person, but will you really be happy knowing that you've also inflicted pain in someone?
I realized it's ok to just walk away and allow myself to forgive, maybe not forget ( for now) I might become indifferent for a while but eventually, forgiveness will come, I mean, hey, come on! Would I really want someone to keep me trapped in a web of anger and thoughts of revenge? heck no!..the person you're trying to hurt may not even care at all, so why bother?..

Ok, I'm just rambling.