Trading My Sorrows

I believe in God.

A friend once told me, God is ABLE. Isn’t it amazing to know that there is someone towhom we can cry out? Isn’t it so nice to have someone take care of everything for us?

Lucky. One word to describe what we are.

I tried to run away from God. I tried to do things on my own. I didn’t want His help because I felt at the time He was making things worse. I asked Him to protect me one fateful day. I thought He didn’t.I was so jaded that I couldn’t see. I was so angry that I didn’t want to listen. I rambled on and on about how things were going great only to be taken away in a snap. No warnings. Or were there but was i just too deaf to hear?

I chose to stay away from church. I almost allowed myself to be swallowed by hatred. I couldn’t bear people reminding me how God is so good. In my heart, i know this to be true but it was clouded over by anger, remorse, selfishness.

One month.Rant.ramble.rant.ramble.rant.

I cried out and even tried to force Him to answer my prayers. I bargained. I threatened. How ridiculous all these seem now.

I grew tired and told Him, Your will be done.Amazingly, a burden was lifted.

Funny how we have to subject ourselves to serious humiliation infront of God only to be reminded later on that we can’t do things on our own.

He’s saying when we stumble, we should dust ourselves off, stand up, open the eyes of our hearts and believe Him because we have a lot of people who need to hear the good news.

Another thing that’s so amazing is that He has the patience to endure all our complaints, listen to us, cry with all of us when He can very well live without us. It reminds me of a line in a song that goes “you put the stars in the sky and You know them by name” If He knows the names of the stars, how can He not know us? The very creation that was made in His image and likeness?

I am so overwhelmed by the magnitude of Hisglory. I’m trading my sorrows for the joy of the Lord.I pray not be to be rid of this ‘high’ for my God. He’s going to amaze me and it will come to me in a big bang! I just know it.

I’m keeping that extra dose of faith in the core my heart.