a ton of bricks

i used to think,that finding some one online for a relationship was a waste of time and effort,so i just started random blogs . maybe for a year and some change,that was my thought.tho all my random blogs were of weird crap that i went threw,i started posting blogs about stalking a certain someone,[i don't want to mention her name,cause having her as a friend is worth more than not having her as one.]well some where down the line ,i bought into my randomness ,and then it hit me[like a ton of bricks]i started to develope feeling for her. it's funny cause,like most of you,my first blog was [does this site really works]i deleted it some time ago,but i remember the blog ,and my lack of belief of this place. i also remember the first time she and i had words with each other,we dislike each other cause of a blog i wrote,she and another lady were being nasty toward me[you know hateful words on both ends,there and mine]. people be careful of the fights you pick with each other ,cause that person may turn into the object of your affection.i need to take a break from this place and get back my bearing and simplify my life ,right now i'm like a ship with out rudders ,and she spins me about.i never told her this sort of stuff ,cause my feelings ,i keep them reserved,plus she knows who she is. i'm better face to face ,i'm a people person,online just feels to out of the ordinary.i know i will be back in a couple of months,so i won't be deleting my profile,but for now,every one take care ,and careful with those bricks adios.