Love at First sight

When I was 20 years old. I met this guy who is very kind, sweet, caring, lovable, responsible and of course handsome. We've met in some gathering(He was a seminarian that time and I was a volunteer). I can say that it was really " love at first sight" the time that we looked at each other is very different.It was a very good feeling. That was the longest eye to eye contact I did to a stranger. After that moment he approached me to get my number. And it all started,he leave from the seminary just to be with me. As time goes by I never notice that were together for more than five years. Time run's so fast I already graduated in college and win a job. For better for worst we have been together. I can feel that he really loves me and I know that I loved him, My family love's him too. But in just one click It's just all ended up, I cant really figure out the reason why. After that long term relationship I never have a boyfriend again. I had a lot suitors before right here, right there ( officemate, churchmate friends of friends) but I cant afford to enter into a new relationship.(Don't know why). I dont want to feel that I am desperate right now by joining this sight I just consider this sight as a new friend of mine.Wherein I can share my story, thoughts and so on. I know that I dont have to be worry for tomorrow because I strongly believe there's something special that God's reserve for me. And so I already claimed it right now. :)