Celibacy...Fighting Temptation

First off, I’m not talking about celibacy for religious reasons here but rather celibacy that strengthens fidelity, loyalty, respect and trust in a relationship… specifically that of a long distance relationship.

Fighting off temptations is a hard thing to do. s*xual energy is a very potent energy and attraction towards opposite sex ( or same sex for others ) are natural. There are different ways to channel s*xual energies to creative uses that could help fight temptation. Spending quality time with my kid, getting busy, work and blogging are the few things that help keep naughty thoughts off my mind

I had a long heartfelt conversation with my BF last night. Maybe he was drunk...he said he feels guilty of not being here to give me what I should have… I’m much younger than him and I’m at the prime of my s*xual life but not getting enough of it …and that if I decide to have sex with someone I’m attracted to he would understand. He prefer that I don’t but if I really want to enjoy myself then he will accept. He assured me that there’s no one else for him but me and he can’t imagine his life without me in it even with the distance between us now. I told him NO, I could never do such disrespectful thing and maybe just maybe if I could I would just for the heck of it. I’ve already chatted with some nice guys online and could meet anyone here local but it never crossed my thick skull to have some fun sex with any of them. I gave him my word that I would wait and keep myself for him as long as we are in this relationship. I would ask for a complete break before exploring the s*xual world with someone else. He said maybe I should try it to be sure that this is what I really want. Well, I’m not going to risk our relationship for some s*xual rendezvous that would surely make me feel shitty guilty afterwards. If that happens, he will never hear nor see me again. I'd rather wait and enjoy making love with him than have it with someone else and feel horrible about it afterwards.

Anyway, I’m looking forward to seeing him next weekend…if he could manage to book a flight and hotel as it will be Eid holiday here and a very busy time. Our weird conversation ended up with him asking for goodnight kisses and me reassuring him that I’m all his and that I won’t do any stupid things beyond blogging and of course some harmless chat and flirtations in the virtual land …easier said done that!

Well, I’m human, I’m a woman…I have needs, I have longings but here I am practicing celibacy for months …all in the name of love. Sure I can go on without sex for years….can you? Really , really?