Double Dating (90)

I honestly think I'll pass today. Sorry.

I should maybe add that everyone's support has been highly valued and helpful and I don't intend to leave entirely. Maybe just quit looking for anyone.

you can't leave..your a star symbol !



i watched a movie called ' THE FIRM 'starring tom cruise and gene hackman last night !



have you ever seen that movie ?



by the way i'm going to get a skype phone for my computer so if you ever fancy a chat one day just let me know and i'll plug it in if or when ever you fancy talking




you're obviously somebody with a lot of emotions thats why you;re able to express yourself in the interesting way that you do whilst a lot of peoples expressions would have ended a long time ago ( BUT THEN WHO'S INTERESTED IN WHAT THEY'VE REALLY GOT TO SAY )!




YESTERDAY WAS A BIG DAY FOR YOU SO MAYBE YOU NEED MORE TIME TO CHILL OUT FROM ALL OF THOSE REPLIES YOU HAD TO MAKE

Thanks Gilly you're very sweet.
The emotions came late in life but there's a lot going on in there, that's true, and I think it freaks people out.

PART THREE



' WHAT FATE HAS IN STORE FOR MANKIND ' sounds like an excellent setting for your next piece !



it makes me wish that i was a musical composer now



by the way do you think that musical composers go through as much emotions as artists ?



or is it a completely different different thing ?



i wish my father allowed us more scope to enjoy playing the piano when my brother and myself were teenagers because i'm sure that i would have enjoyed playing it more

BY THE WAY DID YOU EVER SEE THE FILM CALLED ' THE PIANIST ' ?

i want to see that film !...anyway i wonder how you could properly portray ' a brave new world ' ?




and don't be silly why would'nt you want any women in the picture for ' that piece '



what does golfrapp's utopia sound like then ?



one of the things that i'm really going to miss about my friend dying last week was we were just getting ready to look at music making software to make you own music...he had all the latest software and knew all about it all...but i know nothing about it at this stage



have you ever tried making music ? what you about experimenting with textiles sound interesting !...what sort of things are you thinking about then ?

ARE YOU SURE THAT YOU DON'T JUST WANT TO BE A CURTAIN MAKER ?



the one about not listening to other people's dogma's sound interesting ! do you find that most people that buy your stuff have the same interpretation as you when you created it ?



i know this is going to sound funny coming from me...but are people interested in ' healing pieces ' don't they come across as too simple for the mind ..so therefore not an exciting piece of art to purchase ?



you said

" But you know the funny thing is I had an amazing dream last night. It had many fantastic symbols of self-empowerement, for instance it was my birthday (=the birth of something new) but the strangest thing was that I was wanting to sing Ave Maria by Schubert, and that has always been my favourite song. What is funny about that is that my real life name means the same, that is Hail to Mary (Mary being the caretaker but also a symbol of compassion and unconditional love). Oh NO they are playing it on TV right now! Talk about synch... "

now thats interesting

END OF PART THREE

Not all men are like that as not all women are.I am sorry what happened to you, but life goes on.You seem a nice and decent woman and I am sure you will find the right person for you.

Hello Gilly, very interesting questions actually, but have to get back to it all tomorrow. Meanwhile you can hear Utopia on my website (intro page), on my playlists or on youtube - however beware that it's not the live version, it really sucks. I really love music and wish I could produce anything other than some reasonably sounding singing, and I do think that it's close to the visual arts but obviously more abstract. Well, it's about another sense altogether.

Thank you Gangel for your sweet comment, sympathy has a way of helping because as humans we need to feel that we can share. Well I do anyway... however I seriously wonder if people like me can find anyone who'd be compatible enough.



Thank you Smoky, nice to see you here! I'm glad you're able to appreciate all this since it would be a bit silly to dwell on these things to deaf ears... At least people who are reasonably sensitive go through these things and maybe women in a different way than men a lot of the time. I guess I'm in the process of learning to deal with rejection but it sure has a way of making life seem so incredibly empty... I seriously think that's one of the hardest things to overcome... the void.

Ah took me a while to find my way back here. Ok, I'm still not feeling too good but I guess having one of my cats in my lap and having converstations here is not a bad option.

Sorry about your friend... ;-(

Ok well MANKIND was a pun. MANkind. See? The future of men, not women? That's what was on my mind. I'm not too worried about womens ability to survive... but men... They shoot each other all the time and do other crazy stuff. Let's hope they don't throw out some biological weapon that kills us off too. And no I'm not a feminist but just like all other women I have my thoughts on the difficulty of communicating with the Martians... Dunno, some say there will be a brave new world. I try and go there sometimes, in my dreams so to speak. Just to convey some hope to the hopeless...

So... healing pieces? Yes I think they are often a bit simplistic and I don't really go for that. It's not necessarily art, as IMHO art requires some amount of control so as to combine the planned and the unplanned (conscios and subconcious).

It's of no consequence whether someone thinks the same about a piece as I do. I'm making art for the people... when something arrests a person it means it stimulates something in them that needs to be awoken. That can actually help them to heal. Hm, maybe I should put this on my site? It also doesn't matter what I believe in vs what they believe in - I have a piece with a cross and Christians have to see it as a cross.... to me it's the three of life and a symbol of the human body. But both interpretations are valid and don't collide. But there's often a moral story in my pix for the smart ones to see. But I guess it's subliminal messages because it goes through their subconscious, AHAHAHA...

Argh, I made curtains in England... English style... would NEVER do that IRL thank you! Did I say I would do anything with fabric???


Funny enough, I saw "The Page Turner", a French movie about a pianist yesterday. It was ok. "The Pianist" was ok I guess, not a real hit IMO. "The Piano" by Campion was ok too but the music of course is interesting - that's Michael Newman.