I couldn't stand him...now I want him back! ( Archived) (130)

MizChar: I was in a relationship with Rick for 2 years. We lived together for 1 yr. The last 6 months he irritated the hell out of me and I couldn't stand him. I was really, really mean to him. I faulted everything he did, yelled at him, was snotty and rude. He finally had enough and moved away.I waas fine with it, and rarely thought about him. He came back last weekend to play a gig with his old band and stayed with me.Things were just like when we first started dating. We had so much fun together. I was sweet and loveable BUT, he said that he was over it and has moved on and he wants me to do the same. He said that he still loves me, but isn't IN love with me. I told him I'd be willing to make some changes within myself and wanted to give things another shot. He said it wasn't happening.
Now, I'm totally obsessed with thoughts of him and it's making me crazy!! I feel like I'm losing my mind! Why is it that we always want what we can't have?? I don't handle rejection very well and am having a hard time with it.
I know for me, if I was interested in someone else, it would take my thoughts off of Rick and I've seriously been looking. I put an ad on Craigslist and I think every ugly guy in the county answered.No luck there.I've been in contact with a couple of guys from online, but it seems like everyone is playing some kind of game here and isn't interested in a real relationship.

Sad and lonely...
MizChar

virgiomonkey: .............Thank you Somechick.....This happens a lot more then I think you could ever realize....and I am really sorry that you got 'used' too....Yes, I read your previous post... .. ......... J.D

jvaski: Thank You Anna !