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Yes right - due to him dragging me to that market, I ended with a 5 year thoroughbred stallion who was so wild, none could come near him and he would have ended at the slaughterhouse. Of course I could not bear to watch him walk about in the field all lonely, so I got a goat for company, but they did not bond, which led to me finding him a horse friend instead = 2 horses.
I have literally starved in the past to bring others through, plus no money left for heating at 20 degrees minus. Back then the owners of the riding stable eventually ended bringing the horse I was slowly dying for, to the slaughter when I was not there. They told me someone had to safe me, also considering the horse I had ended with back then had been ruined by others in health so badly, he could not even be ridden anymore, his legs were done in.
2 years ago I had really only wanted one dog, and now I am buckling majorly under the physical strain this household is keeping me under. I am shackled down completely while I had wished to travel and explore, and my daughter watched me last night fighting it out with the hayshed door and she is worried. I have little physical strength, everything has to be achieved via determination alone, but Ireland is overflowing with horses, and I can not see how to find secure homes elsewhere for the two I ended with, and same goes for my 3 additional dogs. The Dobes I really need for protection, but all others are just adding huge strain, although 2 of the cats are okay as well, they are very independant, but the other 3 are real work and responsibility.
My body is beginning to fire serious warning shots, telling me it can't cope, but my heart tells me I can't give under the duties. It tells me I am just selfish, but my mind says this is starting to become a battle for survival, and I have no idea how to solve this dilemma. If I'd give any of these beings away and should find out later they were not looked after, I'd never forgive myself, but if I break this body, I can't look after them either.
I am seriously beginning to panick and have no clue what to do...