I float and I drift
Slowly away
disbelief and terror
Silently I pray
Broken rope trailing
through the depths
my heart drops
today
again
I wept

I drop to my knees and scream
clawing at the boards on deck
my fingernails rip and they bleed
barely feeling the greater pain
warm blood steaming
in that hot humid night air
salt water turning pink
on on this craft of my dspair


I hold on to the edge of the railing
again straining to see the shore
rain spattering off the bow
as the faint image of that land
slowly fades from view

the building thunder starts
again to roll in
the audible release
of that rumble of rage
the tension in the air
my mind in a haze
the sound of thunder bursts wide
- & to my surprise
stops at this momentous peak

no echo returned from land
where I learned I had gone
too far to continue to seek
sad and dissapointed
but now fully resigned
to chart my course
somewhere sublime
the rain keeps coming
the clouds dare to part
sliver of silver
moonlight peeks through
allowing dim light to shine
upon this skeleton crew
only me and this vastness -
direction my choice to make
I fear I might burst.
This coral reef all disguised
down below I again realize,
much too late - the depths of my soul.
sink to its fate.

in this current state
little chance of repair
this used worn log
without the aid of care
creaks and moans
far out and adrift
no options exist
my will must I submit
ride out this storm I surmise
& if my karma complies
perhaps my life I forfit

I resign peacefully at last
this fight inside subdued
drift off into sleep -
that my tormentors intrude
this thread bare covering
wrapped in poor excuse
a moments peace
from this unrepentant abuse
as strange as it seems
Im rocked asleep in my dreams
by the very tumult of the storm
the rain kisses my face
yet I only taste
bitterness of loss and I mourn.