My thoughts are keenly focused Then suddenly they’re in overdrive I can’t maintain a targets clear aim When feelings roughly push me aside
Doggedly I go through the motions Getting my work ready on my desk While struggling with all my emotions I’m thinking about him instead!
He had a mysterious hold on me That I thought would ease over time But the harder I try to fiercely resist I’m compelled to keep looking behind
This is so damned ridiculous!!! And it’s making me a little bit crazy! Everything could’ve already been done If that’s what he’d wanted from me
I’m not the one who gave up the goal Doubting, and dropping the ball He stopped playing, let me know that he quit At least this is what, and how I recall
I’m not a sucker for punishment So I took my licks and I left But ever since then I’ve been haunted By the scenarios deep in my head
I know better than to wish for what’s not So I blocked his memory from my vision But I fear this personal battle's been lost And we’re headed for a painful collision
Or maybe he and I were just a fantasy There was no way we’d ever get together And now it’s time for me to forget the past Perhaps that will make me feel better!
Or maybe, just maybe I’ll keep sticking to my guns Because Rome wasn’t built in a day And once he sees that I really mean business He’ll relent and finally give me my way
One can still pray...
July 18, 2013
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Posted: Jul 2013
About this poem:
Me and my antagonist... protagonist... you never know with relationships, intentions are real, masks conceal, at the end of the day we have to see it both ways to reach an agreeable deal...
ladyjewelDurban, KwaZulu-Natal South AfricaJul 18, 2013
it sounds like a lot of conflicting thoughts, most of us have been here , we just have to decide if it is worth fighting for or letting go
BellaNoraOPMobile, Alabama USAJul 18, 2013
Hi Ladyj, I appreciate you taking the time to read this, it's actually about a business arrangement gone awry, nothing personal involved except my feelings about the confusing state I find myself in about it... hopefully it will all get worked out in the next few months, so I can move on with my life... thank you for commenting, and you're right, I have to decide what I'm going to fight for, and what I'm going to let go of...
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we just have to decide if it is worth fighting for or letting go