" Atrabilious "

I've tasted many emotions
Not one I've left to spare
The bitterness of agony
Harsh vodka with despair
There's the fermented taste of emptiness
Left inside emptied cans of beer
Cheap in all its subtle ways
Engaging all my agoraphobic gears
Anger oddly leaves a sweetened taste
And yet joy taste like the rain
With a very unspecific smell
But in its beauty I'll find Grace
Worry taste like sand
Not adding a single hour to my days
But instead consumes like fire
Inhaling me like a purple haze
Loneliness is flavored tequila
As I chase it down with bottled rage
Inside my gut it twist and cuts
Until im drinking from my hate
Confused, concerned, confined
Desensitized to every touch
My angels subside behind my eyes
Where my demons have their clutch
But only love can taste like water
Without nutrients to quench my bones
As it evaporates into the air
I find myself again standing alone
But never have I tasted peace
Only over flowing cups of war
Between man or beast, against my flesh
And for my God I kneel before
Where I've compassed my own destruction
Its to Your stars I'm looking up
To ask You for their guidance
And to please refill my cup

~Jesse Okoroshi Masu James F~