Swallowing colors that weighed down my pride
With a smiling face my charisma could hide
Holding these feelings that I just want to hold
Buried by chains hoping in time I'll let go
But only in death will I ever find rest
Sending my demons to hell for all the nights that I've wept
Stripping my bones of this flesh that I've so longed to peel
I get caught in its depths and I just want to kill
While I pray to my God my heart falls from the sky
Deeply buried below where my angels subsides
Displacement of love found in all the wrong places
Anger becomes hate then I detach and just break shit
So tell me again doc how should I let go
Before my serotonin and sanity spill all over the floor
From emptied bottles of pills where your salvation is faceless
Chasing bottles of violence until I get wasted
Naked, deflated, bloody knuckled, and bruises
You stood with closed eyes ignorant and still clueless
With no frame of reference to understand where I died
Or why the darkness surrounding keeps me far from the light
Lord of my life would you please start this over
Dig me out of this hole shrinking from sober to colder
Where the maggots consume the only heaven awaiting
But there's nothing left in this world but myself that can save me

~Jesse Okoroshi Masu Forster ~