The penitent man walks in the footsteps of God Poem
by Unknown
May 2010 378 Views 0 comments
The penitent man walks in the footsteps of God
Author: Unknown
To be or not to be? I cannot think, I shall not think for when I think, I think I have thought wrong.
Like the braggart amongst his friends I am egged on to make my next step to play the game
But they are not here to feel this immense fear I have mis-stepped before felt the bitter mockery of the cold floor
to them I am but a carny a source for their amusement it is not a game to me but truly life or death
The cold winds of pressure chill my bones to the core As I sway helplessly in the breeze the feeling gives out in my knees
I look back at the platform although there is no one there to care to catch me if I fall I have abused that privilege they just want this over with
Anxieties, doubts, social restraints and a figure appears at the end ghastly and dark, demonic and malevolent he shakes the ground beneath
Lightning crashes and thunder roars I cannot stand still anymore I must make a choice, must walk the line or surely I will die trying.
So here goes nothing I lift my leg slowly as if hoping I don't have to move alone but suddenly without my knowing I am.
Gone are the rowdy peanut gallery gone is the thunder and rain tis only I against myself one chance to win it all
GOD ORDER MY STEPS I cry aloud He responds not directly but with opportunity
I see two rocks on which to leap both are the same except one is safe the other will lead to my downfall
No words of advice no safety net I give my all to God In nomine Patris et filii et spiritui sancti To You, I commend my soul.
Which way to go I do not know but already I am airborne no pros no cons no surveys at all Time to see how well I chose.
Although I stand here and now I doubt what I have done for the game of Life, although I play is obviously no longer fun.
The weight of all my guilt remorse and my earlier sins bear down on me and the rock I slowly begin to slip.
Memories of thing I have done and what I have gravely failed to do unleash their vengeance upon me I feel nothing but pure agony
tears stream from my eyes as before them, my life flashes by a grandfather I failed to love lies I've told and sins I've done all the great evils of my life threaten to tear me off my side
I cannot believe how selfish I was how utterly appalling I had become I failed to live a life for the Son that matters not, for soon I shall be undone.
What good has come from my existence anything now to relieve this circumstance I search in vain and find not one of any consequence not a deed of any permanence
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Posted: May 2010
About this poem:
This is my highly antagonistic allegory of my own life. Well, Part one, anyway. The original is more than twice as long as the maximum character limit of 3000.