We are most beautiful when we are quietly content and reflective, satisified with our lot in life, when we still have dreams and aspirations, when we still believe in other people and in love and good things.
Hard core born again christians use the expression too, except that sort of info would come out in the context of a heartfelt conversation rather than labeling oneself that way in a first impersonal e mail one is not even certain will be answered...a bit silly.
You must be a very bad girl, or they are all boycotting your persona because you refuse to join their gang, in which case I applaud you for standing up for yourself.
I am wondering how many other people he's hurt being he is a cop. He needs to be stopped in his tracks, but you do realize what you are up against. Tread carefully my dear, but do tread. Go to internal affairs and report him.
Hello Jo. First of all I think you were very courageous to get out of this abusive relationship. You must not blame yourself for choosing to stay when you did. Love makes it all possible at the time, just as logic and reason sometimes have the last word. You must never believe or accept any of the abusive things you were told, because when people are ranting and raving or going for the jugular they can and will be very cruel. If you were all those awful things why did he want you in the first place, ask yourself that. As far as what to do next, I would enjoy the sun, the freedom and peace of mind knowing he can no longer upset you or ruin your day, I would smell the flowers and I would treat myself as well as I can every day, because I am special and I deserve to be happy.
The more you want to know him, the less you ought to show it? I disagree. It doesn't work for mature dating. You ought to, however, take your time, and enjoy getting to know him, and hope that whatever you do get to find out about this knight in shining armor isn't yesterday's tarnished old attire, and a turn off for you.
This recovery you speak of seems to be inversely proportional to the amount of regret and guilt you yourself may have. And forgiveness obviously plays an important role.
That's the simplified/logical version of that, but in reality it depends and so much more, how much of yourself you vested in her is that much more you will be/feel lost. I suppose maturity makes a breakup more bearable but not any less painful or disappointing. Well, I hope you feel better soon.
RE: Have you ever traveled alone?
YES I have, and it isn't so bad.